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A day fully on E3 - Electronic Entertainment Expo

2011-06-08T18:52:00.002+08:00

Hmm, it's been so long since the last awkward post/adaptation of this blog.

A year and 3 months plus passed since the 21st February 2010 update.

And for this update, on 8th June 2011, a very beautiful day,

I literally spent my whole afternoon till evening, watching E3( Electronic Entertainment Expo ) 2011's Press Conferences.

Microsoft, Sony and Nintendo - The Big Thr33 in the Gaming Industry

Well, since most of my friends don't know much about gaming (cuz we're interested in very different things ), I don't think I should say much about them anyway, since anyone'd be bored to death.

Hmm, anyhow, here's a little coverage:

1. Microsoft announced a remastered and remake of Halo: Combat Evolved, which is Halo 1, coming this 2011 Holiday Season. And secondly, the announced Halo 4, which is set to be released in 2012.

2. Sony, on the other hand, revealed their Next Generation Portable(NGP), which was finally unveiled as Playstation Vita(PSVita). Vita means 'Life', in Latin. (Life, can you imagine? Come on, Sony, you can do better than that!! Vita? Life? Gimme a break!!) NGP sounds a hell lot better.

Now, it certainly seems cool with the improved RAM and processors, with the stunning multitouch 5 inches OLED display, with a touchpad at the rear, and the dual-analog sticks(which the PSP should already have ages ago, Good Thinking, SONY!!), the Vita really packs a punch, and Uncharted really looks great on it, can't wait!

3. Last but not least, Nintendo, folks. Well, the Nintendo 3Ds launched around 3 months ago, but it doesn't sell as good as expected, it seems. And with the Wii nearing its eclipse in its life, we've expected Nintendo to reveal its latest console, with a brand new name.

However, it did surprise everyone, i suppose, cuz we'd thought they'd come out with a way Better name, not Wii U!! Wii U, We You? Sounds stupid and not very innovative, isn't it?

Erm, the new touch-sensitive 6.2 inches screen of the new controller seemed cool and all, capable of bringing a new revolution, it seems, but I think it easily gets old after a few years. Just look at the Wii at my home, just got it around 3-4months, and it's gathering dust already.

I was getting hyped up for expecting the Wii 2, cuz months and months of speculation and guessing the Wii 2 will surpass its predecessors with updated HD graphics like the X360 and PS3, and maybe even better, but it certainly disappointed me when i watched the trailer. Not so cool after all when it comes to graphical power for Nintendo, look at all those pixelated games from Gameboy Advance to Nintendo DS.. It's a turn down.

Clossing comments: Definitely getting the PS Vita over the 3DS, although the name suck. Same goes for Halo, I can certainly say although Microsoft's Press Conference suck, I'd support Xbox 360 for the Halo franchise . However, PlayStation isn't a bad choice at all, since I owned the PS1 and the PS2, and till a recent year ago, the PSP. As for the Nintendo products like the Wii and the Ds, I just play Pokemon games on them, I don't fancy Mario and Zelda after all.

有一种幸福的滋味叫感念，有一种满足的情愫叫感念，有一种开心的感觉叫感念

2010-02-21T15:32:00.003+08:00

有一种幸福的滋味叫感念，有一种满足的情愫叫感念，有一种开心的感觉叫感念。——题记

由于人的个体的不同和一个人在不同的时间心境、感悟的不同，对幸福的理解和体验也就千差万别。比如，对于饥寒交迫的人来说，一件棉衣一炉火、一块馒头一口水就足以让他感到莫大的幸福。而一个人在酒足饭饱之后，也许就没有这种幸福的感觉，相反会觉得这是件再平常不过的事情，甚至，饱暖过度后再有这样的“殊遇”，简直就是痛苦之至的事；又比如，当人在痛苦不堪的时候，一个温暖的问候，一句掏心的劝解，对那个人来说就是莫大的慰籍，可能还会使那个人猛然醒悟，从而走出痛苦的深渊。而对一个正沉浸在欢乐中的人来说，这也许根本就不值得一提，甚至不屑一顾；再比如，人在迷惘徘徊的时候，一个鼓舞的眼神，一句鼓励的话语就足以让人从迷惑中清醒，从萎靡中崛起，感受到那暖暖的情意，觉得那是一种怎样的幸福！但对于一个春风得意的人来说，这样的眼神他或许根本就不会在意，这样的话语他抑或根本就是不会去用心听。……

从更深的层次理解，由于所处环境、所受教育、自身感悟力等的不同，人的需要由低到高的层次也就不同，对幸福的感受也就有了层次上的差别，对于同样的事物、同样的际遇的感受也就不同，也有了幸福和不幸福截然不同的感受。注重物质的人也许得到钱财就会感觉到很幸福，但注重精神享受的人却并不会感到拥有那些东西就是幸福。相反，一橱好书对于一个目不识丁的人来说，只不过是一堆无用的废物。……况且，不是谁都能心想事成，梦想成真。所以，说到底，幸福就成了一种心态。

很长时间以来，幸福于我就是怀有一颗感念恩情的心。当我的内心充满着无限的感念时，所有的一切于我来说都是那么的美好和明媚！有了这样的感念，我的内心是那么的平和与满足、又是那么的开心和幸福。我因此不再忧虑不再恐惧不再不安不再寂寞不再迷离，也不再无所适从。

何尝不是！在我们生活的这个世界里，一切的一切包括一草一木都对我们有恩。只要我们的心充满着感念，用感恩的心感念生命中一切值得感念的东西，这样，幸福就会充溢着我们的心，我们就会感到无比的幸福。心存感念，心灵就会常葆纯净，良知就会俯仰无愧，生活的大树就会枝繁叶茂，万古长青。“你感恩生活，生活将赐予你灿烂的阳光。”常怀感念之心，就会发觉世界是如此的美好，如此的让人眷恋。

——我感念，我幸福！

“谁言寸早心，报得三春晖。”我感念我的父母，是他们给予我生命，是他们给了我最无私、最深沉的爱，父母的爱让我以积极的心态面对人生，珍惜自己、珍惜未来…… 他们的爱是我一生最宝贵的财富，父母的爱是温暖、圣洁的代名词！父母的爱平常却不平凡，普遍却不普通，这是一种永远也报答不完的恩情，这样的恩情从我们呱呱坠地的那一刻起就一直滋润着我们，守望着我们。在我们走过的春花秋月中，这恩情已汇成一片无法丈量的汪洋，让我们不能不去感念并力图回报。　　

高山巍巍，使人崇敬，师恩如山，永铭我心；大海浩瀚，无法估量，师恩似海，永刻记忆。我感念我的恩师，是他教给我知识和做人的道理。他是我遮雨的伞，挡风的墙，是他用自己的生命之光，照亮了我人生的旅途。那温和的眼神是无声的语言，曾让我对生活充满希冀；那严格的要求是燃烧的火焰，给过我多么巨大的热力；忘不了他和风细雨般的话语，怎能忘他浩荡东风般的叮咛，荡涤了我心灵上的尘泥，鼓起我前进的勇气。那如春风、似瑞雨的谆谆教诲，化作我脑中的智慧，胸中的热血，那如翠竹、似青松的铮铮傲骨，变为我行为的规范，做人的标准。他是我心中的一道彩虹，照耀着我堂堂正正地做人，踏遍心田的每一角，踩透心灵的每一寸，满是对恩师的感念。

“爱的别名叫感恩”。我感念爱人的恩情，是他给予我爱情和亲情，让我尽享爱情的甜蜜与美好，让我明白生命的意义和生存的价值，让我……我感念亲人，是他（她）们给予我快乐，是他（她）们让我享受着这么多友情的温暖和生活的香醇。我感念亲人在我开心的时候和我分享，在我烦闷的时候听我诉说；感念他（她）们在我迷茫的时候给我指出我前行的方向，在我清醒的时候给我善意的指正。

永远的朋友，永久的美好，真挚的情意，美好的祝福。我感念朋友们的随意而又不失礼仪，自若而又不无尊重。感念他（她）们让我循着友谊的涓涓细流听到流淌着的快乐和惬意，听到那些让人温暖的故事。他（她）们就是我的一笔宝贵的财富。那每一句问候，那每一个关注都是一瓣瓣的心香、一份份的愉悦。无所谓远近，无所谓年龄，也无所谓性别，也许他（她）身在咫尺，也许他（她）远在天涯，彼此相知、相牵、相助、相契，就是人间最惬意、最畅快、最温馨、最美丽的意境，就是人间最真挚的感动！友情，自理解中诞生，升华中融洽；识于偶然，止于永久。他（她）们的灿烂笑容会长留我心中，他（她）们的亲切话语会永伴我左右，他（她）们的热情激励将永远鼓舞我前行，他（她）们的关爱、帮助会永温暖我心房。

我同样感念我的同事们，他（她）们似和风如细雨，滋润着我的生活，他（她）们丰富了我的生活，增添了我的情趣。醇醇的一杯酒，淡淡的一盏茶，浅浅的一席话，悠悠的一段路，彼此述说着生活的故事，品味着生命的历程。

我感念生活中的酸甜苦辣，正是这不同的境遇，让我能坚强面对生活中的顺境与逆境，让我享受到生活的甜蜜与美好，让我明白了生活的真谛。

我感念社会。文明的社会总能让我体会到大家庭的温暖。有了社会，才有了规则和秩序，我才有了一颗安稳的心；有了社会，我才会有定位，也才会找到自己的合适位置；有了社会，我也才明确了努力和方向。是社会教会了我生存的本领，砥砺了我的意志，培养了我的品格，我才能真正成为一个有尊严、有理性的人。

我感念大自然。我感念大自然无私的赐予人类阳光雨露、清风朗月、山水万物，无私的哺育着人类生息繁衍。我感念太阳给予我们的光明和温暖、感念蓝天给予我们的纯静和不染、感念大地给予我们的宽容和浩博，我感念草原给予我们对“野火烧不尽，春风吹又生”的叹服，我感念大海让我有兼收并蓄的倾听……我感念大自然的一切的一切，让我尽享花红草绿、莺飞燕舞的无尽美好！

我感念宁静在我孤独的时候以最温柔的手给我；我感念回忆在我痛苦的时候以最好的笑容给我；我感念美丽让我的心灵永远年青；我感念苦难令我日益坚韧；我感念幻想使我依然向往明天．．．．．．我感念这个寒冷的冬天有那么灿烂的阳光温暖着我冰冷的身心，我感念这个枯燥的冬天有这么美丽的雪花愉悦着我寂寥的心情，我感念这个清寂的冬天有温馨的情谊在滋润着我寂寞的心田，我感念有女儿带给我那么多开心和欣慰……

……

没有阳光就没有日子的温暖；没有雨露就没有五谷的丰登；没有水源就没有生命；没有父母就没有我们自己；没有亲情友情和爱情世界就会是一片孤独和黑暗。我感念父母给了我生命，我感念老师教给我成长，我感念于朋友的相识，使我得到那么多关爱，让我的心情因此明丽，使我的思想因此深邃，让我的生命因此精彩，让我的思绪因此澎湃！我感念所有关爱、关注、帮助我的人，他（她）们让我感受到人世间的善良！我也感念那些伤害我的人让我学会了坚强，学会了宽容和豁达。我感念于提供实现自我价值的社会，我感念大自然，我感念顺利，感念挫折，我感念痛苦，感念开心……我感念梦境将这一切的美好送到我身旁；我更感念时间将一切美好全部留下，给了我永远珍视的记忆！我感念命运赐予我爱的芬芳、情的温馨，我感念生命赋予我真、善、美的真谛！

有人说，从某种角度说，爱是需要回报的，单向的爱，常常走不了多远，没有回音的爱，也会让爱悄悄隐去。其实，感念恩情也是一种爱，感念就是一种回报，因为有些恩泽是我们无法回报的，有些恩情更不是等量回报就能一笔还清的，惟有用纯真的心灵去感动去铭刻去永记，才能真正对得起给你恩惠的人。有了一颗感念之心，就会宽容，就会承受，就会付出，也就更懂得回报。所以，学会了感念，才会在生活中发现美好，才会有一个好心情，也就会用微笑去对待每一天，用微笑去对待世界，对待人生，对待朋友，对待困难。这样就可以化腐朽为神奇，化冰峰为春暖，化干戈为玉帛，生活的每一天就会充满开心、满足和幸福。

其实细想想，自己是一个多么幸运的人！无论何时何处总有人给我帮助与关怀，一再的体会，一再的确信，是所有关爱我的人用爱心和宽容组成了我生活的点点滴滴，让我尘封的心灵绽开笑厣！其实细想想，幸福无处不在。关键是有一颗感念恩情的心！我知道，这个冬天，我成熟！我为自己有这样感悟而开心，我更为让自己有了这份感悟的亲友而感恩，我知道，以后我不会再让父母为我担心了，我也知道，我以后再也不会让所有关爱我的人不安了，我更知道，我已经找到了我自己，我会好好把握自己拥有的这一切，把握好自己的人生！我会好好感念这一切的温馨温暖和温情！我会好好感念这一切的关注关心和关爱！

西方有一句谚语：“幸福，是有一颗感恩的心”。此时此刻，我是幸福的，一种很真切的幸福把我包围！因为我沉浸在一种真真切切的感念之中。不是吗？在这个静静的夜晚，我能不受干扰地静静地看书，静静地码字，静静地牵挂，默默地想念，这是一种多么令人满足的惬意——此时此刻，我感念这温暖房间里的一切一切：温暖的暖气、柔和的灯光、馨香的花香、陈年的普洱，还有窗外在灯光下飘舞着、美丽着、晶莹着的雪花，还有那份浓浓的相思，淡淡的牵挂，还有那份幽幽的情意，绵绵的爱恋……这是怎样的一份满足，这是怎样的一份开心，这又是怎样的一种令人陶醉的幸福！人生有此美好，足矣！这是一种多么幸福的感觉，这种感觉就叫感念！

因为感念，我忘了琐碎的烦恼；因为感念，我用爱把我的心围绕；因为感念，我看到那么多的美好和幸福！因为感念，我重新体会到生活的乐趣、体味到生命的宝贵！当然，我也会用我感念的心去理解生命中那剪不断理还乱的纷纷扰扰和迷蒙、用感念的心去净化生命中那扯不清道不明的恩恩怨怨和纠缠。感念，让我找到了人生路上幸福的记号！

“感恩的心，感谢有你，伴我一生，让我有勇气做我自己；感恩的心，感谢命运，花开花落我一样会珍惜……”歌声响起来，品味着生命的甘醇丰厚与火热，感受着岁月的亲切自然和美好，感念又一次那么清晰地涌上心头，幸福就弥漫了整个心间……

幸福就是有一颗感念恩情的心啊！

——我感念，我幸福！

Posted by a guy/lady named :表白吧

Adapted at
3.36pm
21 February 2010

閱讀，這份禮物

2010-01-05T22:33:00.003+08:00

千年以前，潘朵拉從宙斯手上接過禮物盒

因為好奇而將它打開

所有的疾病、災厄、和平、嫉妒、愛情......全都降臨人間

她慌張地蓋上，盒子里只剩下 [希望]

書本也像裝著生命面貌的盒子

翻動刹那，再度揭開她留下的期待與希望

20世紀謝幕以後，書的樣子以超乎想像

人們才漸漸明白它的背後，承載了千言萬語的靈魂

輕輕捎來生命信息，有些糾成遺憾、有些結成幸福

透過閱讀，才有千絲萬縷情感的交流

原來每一本書，

都像生命凝結而來的禮物。

Boredom

2009-11-22T02:43:00.004+08:00

That little boi boi is bored.
On some level, he suppose that boredom is a good thing. Considering his present environment, the opposite of boredom could well be life threatening. Perhaps he should be grateful. Perhaps...
Nope. Nope, still bored. Impossible to be grateful for being bored. There are simply too many interesting things going on in the world to tolerate boredom for even a moment.
It's probably his mind that is to blame. His mind is always racing, always thinking, always conceiving new ideas, new concepts. His mind chafes against boredom, rages against the very notion of tedium. He thinks about a friend of his who was a coffee addict, claiming that the reason he regularly put junk up his mouth was that he was bored, and having a sip of coffee helped to counteract the threat of impending tedium.

***Some really random things a klutz wrote, just to rectify boredom.=]

2.56am

22 November 2009

Truant?

2009-11-19T10:22:00.002+08:00

I know i am not supposed to be here right now,

I was supposed to be there.

I know i am not supposed to blog here right now,

I was supposed to be there.

It all started since that fateful tuesday,

the very 1st time in my life,

I didn't go schooling,

for no reasons.

I played truant.

And now,

I regret it.

I'm puzzled.

I don't know what to do.

***Flashback***

[D Tuesday]

It was already 6am, or more than that, actually.

He felt someone shaking him, calling his name, trying to wake him up.

Yet, he didn't.

All he did was just ignoring them.

Around half past twelve in the afternoon,

He was awaken from his deep slumber.

'Another 1 hour and 15 minutes, my bros are gonna come back home.'

He thought to himself.

[D Wednesday]

A Miserable day, indeed.

He again, woke up at 6.45am, which was the time he and his family usually depart from home.

Quickly, he ran towards the bathroom.(Although it's just beside his bedroom)

All he knew was, he wanted to keep his promise.(Don't ask me what promise, kay? I'm not that good at secret-telling)

He did what needed to be done, ASAP.

However, by the time he got out of the bathroom,

they were already gone.

Left with no other choice,

he changed to his schooling attire,

drank a mug of MILO,

and out he went.

Walking was fun, but DIRTY.

He was soaked wet when he reached his class,

it wasn't the first time already, so it didn't really matter.

[D Thursday]

He woke up pretty damn early, 10am.

He tried texting and calling, for guidance, for help,

as he was left alone at home.

No one replied, nor did they answer.

Frustrated, he sat on his bed,

didn't know what to do.

'They must have thought I didn't want to go to school.'

He thought to himself.

After brushing his teeth, he sat there, right on that spot on his bed which he was sitting a while ago.

He waited, for their reply.

He hoped the telephone would just beep, ringing would be need too much hope.

Finally, he rung.

He already knew it wasn't her though.

But, it was fine, and great.

Cuz someone called, at least.

Hern Yi was the one who called.

H.Y. told him about where he should be going later.

He reassured him that he will go, and he wanted to go to school.

Yes, He will indeed.

He swear, he isn't gonna make the same mistake ever again.

12.04pm

19.November.2009

The Day Which Wasn't Supposed To Be

When night falls,,,

2009-11-10T23:35:00.002+08:00

2009's gonna end,

Cuz 2012's comin lol...

12/11/09

"We were warned"

The year everyone's been waiting for,

The end of the world,

is near.

Gonna catch this movie for sure,

but the initial plan has been changed,

so 'll probably go on friday.

2009 is really coming to an end,

i don't know why, but i just get the feeling that this year just flew

Everything just happened so fast.

It's as if i have just had my PMR yesterday.

And i already have to face SPM now.

HECK...

I don't know how am I gonna do that...

Today's a good day,

with us singing and winning and stuffs...

These moments, perhaps they're the last, so i'll cherish 'em...

Well, singing together on stage is not something students of 10+ could do all the time,

that's why i thought at least this could be part of my ever-lasting memory when i leave school, leave home, leave friends...

Dunno, it's just...

Look, there's only around 1 year left for all of us to be together,

going to the same school, the same class, the same laboratory, the same canteen, the same toilet, everything...

and after that, it's gonna be GOODBYE,

perhaps it would be the last one you can ever say to a person,

or it might not be,

cuz we might meet each other some other day, right?

Who knows?

But, to be honest,

i just get the feeling that,

even if we did meet one another when we start college-ing/uni-ing,

we wouldn't be able to talk and chat and do stuffs we did back here at school back then...

I don't know all about these, it's all so random, again...

All i know is that,

there's not much time left for us to be together,

and that's what really matters to me, right now.

Cuz it seems like i'll lose lots of hard-earned trust and friendship once i leave school,

as i won't be studying Form 6 or whatever it is, probably...

Holy crap, i really can't believe i'm gonna be in Form 5 next year,

all the while i always thought i till have a long time and long way to go before i will study Form 5...

And now,

'Poof'', here i am, ending Form 4 in 2 weeks,

and a new school life at a different class will start, soon...

And so it's time for me to think about my career, my future,

as i haven't really thought deeply about it.

Cuz there's just so damn many jobs in the world,

and i would like to do all of 'em...

Zzz, i'm so greedy,

despite knowing that's obviously impossible...

The results for this final exams aren't that amusing,

i'm totally unsatisfied...

Well, the last time i was satisfied with my results was,

indeed, during the UPSR paper, and the years before that...

All i can say is that 'Gone were the days when he was still a hardworking boy, he's changed,

not in a positive and encouraging manner, he's become a lazy bum who' s only interested in computers and gaming consoles...'

That's why his results deteriorated, crappy results.

Damn it!

Results, they always meant somethin to him...

12.08am

11 November 09

Talk

2009-11-08T22:26:00.003+08:00

He needs someone to talk to.

'So much to talk about, yet don't know how to start with, eh?'

Wish i could lend him a hand.

Something just so RANDOM

2009-11-04T14:36:00.002+08:00

Dear Blog,

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to abandon you and leave you here alone for months...

I don't think i have someone to talk to, that's why i'll just utter some nonsense on a new page of you, you won't mind, would you?

Yesterday was the beginning of HAPPY DAY, (not very HAPPY, actually)

and today is the beginning of DOOMSDAY.

I thought it would be a good day today at school, although i knew it would be quite lame and boring with the award giving ceremony going on in the morning.

Yea yea~Applause, Applause and Applause...

Things then turned real bad after the ceremony and all ended, i peered at the teacher's desk with the exam score sheet on it.

Message on my head -"Oh No...."

It was Physics period soon after the long long recess, which i used the time to just stare at the same page of the Twilight novel i purchased months ago. Yes, i was looking at it, but not reading though...Physics, yea Physics...lame grades either...

But it sucks the most when the both neighbours sitting beside me got excited and made such fuss about their god damn full-marks, 40 over 40. (Yea, yea, great, cool, congrats, but just turn down your volume when you're try to celebrate)

I would have preferred if you guys who scored better grades than the others, would just shut your god-damn-mouth and stop boasting about yourself by asking how much the others got.

It's pretty irritating when i "OVERHEARD" you criticizing that girl who sits in front, it's not that i admire, adore or like her or whatsoever...

Just be humble, wouldn't you?

Besides, you were only sitting next to me and you wouldn't even bother how i felt when you were teasing the others, especially when that person was just right in front of me? Curse you!

And you wouldn't have believed this, someone proposed to come over my house and have a steamboat party. Yea, yea, BRILLIANT idea...

Who slept the earliest, remember?

Who did the cleaning then, remember?

Who played my computers when most of them were busy preparing for that steamboat, remember?

(At this point, this post sure IS a mess, so unorganized, but it can't be helped, for my feelings and thoughts are currently like that too)

I could remember myself doing the dishes that night, with some of them already asleep, some too absorbed to the movie to such extent that they didn't even notice my disappearance...

It's been so nice of you all back then, leaving the master of the house cleaning the whole mess while you were all sleeping and watching TVs...Such nice friends you all were...

I decided to get over it, but this memory of that day keeps on reappearing on my head.

Why?

Well, i don't have to answer this, do i?

Lately, someone's been a real ass.

Y. H. Y.

Yea, i know everyone knows you, so i don't have to type your full name out, right?

Such an asshole you were back then, not to mention yesterday...

You've been trying on my patience, someday, i'm gonna lose my wits and you'll regret.

I admit you do have your good qualities of being a friend,

but sometimes you are so damn annoying...

By the way, is it some random acts of kindness to lend someone your phone?

I don't think so...By that time when i was willing to 'lend' you my phone, i thought you'd return it, not OWN it.

Some of you really pisses me off, but i think it's best if no one knows about this...

I don't even know what i wrote here, as i don't even look back and check for errors in posts...

Damn It

2009-11-02T23:06:00.001+08:00

I'm being underestimated,

and I don't like it.

[SUPER HQ] Girls' Generation (SNSD) - GEE FULL MV!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-04T22:27:00.001+08:00

Lenglui~=]

Thank You So Much~

2009-09-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

One of my mom's maids is gonna leave tomorrow.

Back home.

Back to Indonesia.

2 years of working.

From ba-ka to pro-ka.

I do respect them, to be honest.

Not to mention the age gap,

and to their jobs.

Without them,

my house wouldn't have been this clean and tidy.

Sometimes, the place gets really dirty and messy.

If there weren't them, it would have been an eyesore.

Thanks to you two...Kakak Aminah and Kakak Yati

I overheard my mom saying that she couldn't get a child after a few years of marriage.

Here's my sincere "THANKS FOR EVERYTHING",

and wish her all the best when she gets back.

Terima-Kasih banyak banyak~

10.47pm

25 September 2009

Ah~ An Idiot's Life

2009-09-25T19:12:00.004+08:00

I've been knowing this kid for quite some time.

This kid i know, he doesn't talk much.

He's not really tall compared to kids of his age.

Okay, so there's something i know about this kid's life yesterday.

Ever since his grandpa's sudden death, his grandma's been acting strangely,

She dare not live in her house.

She says she's afraid.

Initially, she slept with the kid.

Next, the boy's grandma moved.

Moved to her daughter's place.

And now,

she's currently staying with her sister.

So, the thing the boy's confused is,

What's she so afraid of?

Is she being afraid of her own husband?

What the....

Yesterday, the grandma claimed that she had totally forgotten to bring lunch for the child's younger siblings - a 10-year-old boy and a 7-year-old girl who were at school waiting for her.

She had also forgotten to pick the twins up at the bus stop, and hence both of them walked back.

Furthermore, she had forgotten what time she should pick the kid up...

The kid was thus worried about his grandma,

afraid that she'll have as she can't accept her husband's death...

And so,

When she asked the boy what time to pick the boy up,

The boy answered "No Need"

"Nevermind, i can fetch you before 5pm~"

"I think it'll be later than 5pm...So it doesn't matter, i'll come back myself tomorrow"

"Emm... I think i can make it, so you'll call me when you're ready, right?"

"Errrr... There isn't such need, my friend will send me home..=]"

"Oo... Your friend'll send you home, then ok la~"

In his heart, he's apologizing silently to his grandma for lying.

As he knows there isn't any friend who's gonna send him back.

And so,

The boy walked home today.

What a tiring journey.

He started by looking at his black, 5-year-old Casio watch.

It took the boy some time to read the time, and finally, he saw it.

4.48pm

Mentally, he was already tired.

Without further delay, he took off.

Around 5pm, he reached O.K. Tuck restaurant.

The boy was already perspiring under the blazing hot cruel Sun.

At a 5meters-wide road, he was at.

Yet, all of a sudden, a familiarly girlish, yet aged voice was heard from the opposite road side.

The boy turned up his head and looked towards the direction the voice was made.

"O.M.G. What the hell is grandma doing here????"

Analysed the surroundings,

determined that his grandma was picking some vegetables and was asking the price.

Without a word,

he turned his head back straight and fast-walk, LIGHT SPEED!

He quickly made a left turn, into an alley,

just in case if his grandma took that way back.

He then walked the quiet alley which cars rarely use.

Passed by the old kindergarten/children's daycare center he used to go till primary 5. Nostalgically, he looked at it.

And walked past it, made a right turn, back into the main road.

Fast-walking was quite impossible anymore,

as he was struggling up a long-long slope.

His bag on his back, was a real burden now,

even though it wasn't heavy at first,

now he felt it.

His legs ached, calling for a Time-Out.

Ignorant as he always was, he ignored them all,

he was really afraid that his grandma would be behind him any time.

And he'll be flooded with questions if she saw him.

And she'll be sad and angry of her grandson,

to be a liar,

to bluff his grandma.

Phew, the uphill journey ended,

and now,

it's downhill...

Wohoooo~~~~

Energy level - normal,

Systems all green.

START UP.

He sprinted down the slope,

and rang the bell.

The black watch clocked at 5.06pm.

Gasping for air,

Still carrying out anaerobic respiration.

Time needed to remove total lactic acid:

20 minutes.

Blog.

Chat.

Blog.

Chat.

Blog.

Chat.

Blog.

Chat.

Blog.

Chat.

Blog.

Chat.

Blog.

Chat.

Blog.

What a cycle~

Blog Session Ended:

8.57pm

25 September 2009

走

2009-09-16T21:18:00.002+08:00

一个人走，和两个人一起走有什么差别？

一个人走，

有孤单的感觉。

两个人走，

有分享的感觉。

一个人走，

有伤心落寞的感觉。

两个人走，

有开心愉快的感觉。

一个人走，

可以走出悲伤。

两个人走，

可以走出快乐。

你，

喜欢走怎样的路呢？

9.23pm

16.9.09

Shit

2009-09-07T22:01:00.002+08:00

The early morning greeted me with such a tension that i couldn't bear.

I heard a girlish voice calling my name,

My eyes were then opened.

Little did i know it was already 6.50am.

The engine roared to life a few seconds later.

I once realised it was already late,

but it was already too late.

Preparations to go to school were soon done and finished,

I was ready after having my mug of MILO drunk and washed.

I was then hopin my mom could send me to school,

so i ran up and knocked her door.

The conversation ended in a few seconds,

and what i learnt was,

she wouldn't bother to send me to school.

As she told me to ask for help,

from my grandparents.

I called immediately, as it's already around 7.15am that time.

No time to loose.

Once the line got through,

i paused and thought,

"Wait, even if they picked up the phone,

I would have to explain everything,

it takes time. Hell lots of time.

Even if i did explain,

It'll again take some time for them to prepare to come and pick me up.

Furthermore, my grandpa's having heart disease,

and i don't think i should wake them up just because of me.

Thus,

grabbed my keys,

hopped right into my shoes,

opened, closed the small door from the auto-gate.

Started fast-walking.

I've already started having muscle cramps by the time i reached OK-Tuck Restaurant.

Perhaps i was pushing myself too hard,

trying not to be late,

in spite of knowing the fact that i'm already late.

Such short distance and having muscle cramps?

Yea, i'm not an athlete, i know that.

Fanks for reminding, appreciate that.

Upon arrival at class after the 18minutes "walk",

everyone was busy.

I cannot say that i'm glad,

for i desired someone, ANYONE to show a little concern, some sympathy.

There i was,

still carrying out anaerobic respiration,

gasping for air,

Soaked wet on the back,

as if i just took my shower.

It was so damn obvious,

No one asked nor cared.

Couldn't blame people though,

why the hell would people care?

I ain't any Jay Chou or David Beckham.

WHY?

Ask yourself, poor boy ShinN.

And the rest of the day was also ruined,

cuz of that bad start.

And now i just heard something which i really hate.

"Don't play too late arh ei, later tomorrow cannot wake up again..."

D*** you, DAD!!!!

D*** you, MOM!!!

D*** all of you!!!!!!!!!

12.19am

8/9/09

Somethin, I do not know for myself.

2009-09-03T01:29:00.004+08:00

Today wasn't a great day, to be honest.

I wasn't happy.

Something is bothering me.

I couldn't do anything about it.

Or should i say,

I didn't?

Thanks for your concern,

I'm glad you were there.

I've always hoped someone or somebody,

anyone, anybody,

would be there for me.

I was desperately intend to speak my heart out.

No one was there.

I tried to control it.

Never let it control you, i spoke to myself.

I failed though.

It ran down,

What a drizzle.

Finally, i was asleep.

Glad.

Yes, I am.

------------------------------------Divider, I'm----------------------------------------------

The Dale Carnegie Training ended a little while ago.

23rd of August.

It was such a nice day.

My mom and sister attended the convocation as well.

It was that day that i hoped that it would last longer.

The whole training.

To be honest,

I learnt a lot.

Fundamental Techniques in Handling People and Socialising.

How to Win Friends and Influence People.

How to Stop Worrying and Start Living.

and so much more.

-What exactly is The Dale Carnegie Training?

log on tohttp://www.dalecarnegie.com/about_us/about_us.jsp

-Who is Dale Carnegie anyways?

He is...http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dale_Carnegie

There's always the same question which people ask.

"Why can't you come on this Sunday?"

I'm attending a course.

"What course are you attending?"

Dale Carnegie Training.

"What exactly is that?"

I've tried answering that question before,

It's really tough.

Despite all my efforts explaining,

People wouldn't understand.

Some could,

Some could hardly.

Some people were flabbergasted upon hearing the fee.

I'm not surprised to see people surprised.

I know it ain't cheap,

Yet, it's totally worth it.

I'm always anxious about something.

I've told some of my friends about this training.

So i believe they would hardly not take me as an example or this training.

So how i behave and how i communicate,

what i do,

how i rectify a problem.

I believe they would just think,

"Cheh, after paying so much money for the cost,

you're still the same,

no changes at all"

I do know that people won't say this kind of things in front of me.

That's why i'm afraid and worried.

To be honest, i'm trying really hard to change my life.

Just give me some time, kay?

I really want a better life.

I'm trying really hard to apply those principles into my life,

especially school life.

If only some of my friends had also attended the training.

Then they would know the importance of those principles.

And therefore lead a better life like never before.

Recently,

I'm having a grudge for those who talk bad about people,

not to even mention criticism.

I'm already trying to hold back whenever i feel like criticising,

as the 1st principle's always on my mind.

But the stop worrying and start living thingy,

i'm still on it.

Give me some time, i'll work it out.

Principle No. 5

[Keep on SMILING] ShinN~

It does make a difference.

Phew... say BYE to exams!!

2009-08-19T18:15:00.005+08:00

Yea Yea!!!!

Finally, EXAM's over!!!

Despite being sad and down after that chemistry exam,

i enjoyed and had some fun though, in Terminal 1...

G.I. JOE was a cool movie,

I would highly recommend you to watch this if you are into action movies and have an 1.5hours to kill, as it's quite entertaining, well, for me, that is...

Equipped with hi-tech armor/suits, gizmos and advance weaponries, ranging from bullet proof armor to super fast movement and hi-jump ability given by the hi-tech suits, you'll probably let out a WOW and LOL expression of your faces... Besides, both the ninjas, SNAKE EYES and STORM SHADOW looked FREAKIN AWESOME, it's a must-see for those who love intense fighting scenes, with shurikens being tossed and swords being swung around, you'll be thrilled to the core everytime these 2 appear...=]

To actually get the gist of the story if you don't intend to watch it in the theatres, just click this link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/index.html?curid=13734892 to read more about the movie.

I do understand that all action movies e.g. the highly anticipated blockbuster movie of 2009, Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen, Terminator Salvation, Mission Impossible, the 007 Bond are unreal or tooooo fake, as they tend to use lots of special effects and CG(Computer Graphics) to create beings like Optimus Prime or some really gigantic SKYNET company as they don't really exist...But if only you could imagine yourself being in that kind of world, and try to

enjoy yourself throughout the movie, you can never say G.I. JOE's a not-so-bad movie, as rater by those movie critics all around the world...

However, G.I. JOE's doing quite well in the theatres all around the world...

According to the statistics in wikipedia, G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra opened at number one in North America on its opening weekend, grossing $54.7 million, and earning about $44 million i

n the rest of the world. As of August 17, 2009, the movie currently grossed $101.1 million at the domestic box office with $94.2 million from other countries with a total of $195.4 million worldwide.

>>The official movie poster of G.I. JOE<<

>>Snake Eyes, from the JOE team<<

>>Storm Shadow, from the COBRA team<<

Right before the movie, i bought myself some PS2 games to play with, as the exams' finished, thus giving me ample time to waste...

The game titles are as follows:

Ultimate Ninja 4: Naruto Shippuden

Valkyrie Profile 2: Silmeria

Kamen Rider: Climax Heroes

Dynasty Warriors: Gundam 2

However, there was a huge letdown as i couldn't get my hands on them once i descend down from the cinema level to the shop which i bought the games...

Due to the fact that the PS2 games sold in Malaysia are mostly pirated ones, hence once they received news that some authority responsible to those copyright and laws were going to Terminal 1, they immediately took action by closing down their HQ, where all the pirated games were kept and sold...

Moreover, it was my fault to let that friendly guy there safekeep my belongings and those games, consequently he told me to drop by some other day to pick my games up...

FRUSTRATED,

left with no other choices,

SAM and I went home when his dad called him up and said that he has arrived...

Nevermind though, as the stupid exams are over, i'll try to accompany my dear computer as much as i can...=]

Tomorrow's gonna be a normal schooling day again, i'm not looking forward to it...

Who will?

Will you look forward to be at school to learn some new chapters and things when you've just completed your exams the day before???

What an idiotic idea to go school again just after we've done the exams...

WoHOOOO~~~~

2009-08-15T15:50:00.002+08:00

Wohoo~~~

Finally,

it's Saturday,

gao dim jor the 6th day,

3 more to go~~

Monday

Sejarah

Biology(UEC)

Tuesday

Additional Maths

English Paper 2

Wednesday

Chinese

Chemistry (UEC)

6 papers, 3 days more,

GamBat3h!!

ILL

2009-08-06T08:55:00.002+08:00

2nd day,

woke up,

bathed,

eaten,

had medicine...

Dizzy again ler...

the cough medicine makes me sleepy, as usual...

Next monday gonna exam ler,

also dunno how to die...

Nevermind ba,

sleep jor sin...

外婆

2009-07-15T20:35:00.003+08:00

耶！！

久违的外婆回来了~

好久不见，

只不过一下楼，看见一个熟悉的身影...

带着帽子，心想应该是外婆本尊吧...

进行了电疗后，似乎看不见一丝白发了耶...

事实上，外婆已是“尼姑”一族了...

梳子对她来说已毫无用处了...

希望外婆早日康复，

我想看到健康、快乐的外婆...

现在她好可怜哦，

什么都不能吃，天天吃些粗茶淡饭...

难怪她变瘦了，变得憔悴了许多...

外婆，加油！！

孙儿

8.44pm

15 July 2009

永恒的思念

2009-07-12T01:12:00.003+08:00

She is just away.

You cannot say,

you must not say she is dead.

She is just away with a cheery smile and a wave of the hand.

She has wandered into an unknown land,

and left us dreaming how very fair it must be,

since she lingers there,

so think of her faring on as dear in the love of there as the love of here.

Think of her still as the same,

and say she is not dead,

she is just away.

May it some how help to ease the sorrow that we all bear to know that there are many hearts than understand and care.

There is so little one can say,

so little one can do when you have lost a loved one who was very dear to you.

Still,

many understanding thoughts are being sent,

to let you know that others are and share loss today.

悄悄的，你走了。。。

犹记得初一的我们，几乎不曾说话。。

除了那一次，闹得蛮大的，

那件事，至今亦未曾忘记。。。

唉，当年，

幼稚的我。。。

上了初二，新的一年，

迎接新的自己。。。

是长大了没错，没那么幼稚、贪玩。。。

不久后，家里开始出现了一部电脑。。。

网上，

咱们还蛮聊得来，偶尔还聊聊心事、讲笑话笑笑。。。

无可否认，你是个很棒的朋友、listener。。。

当年，帮了我不少，谢啦~

初三、高一，

甚少碰面了，

就算撞到，

有时会打打招呼，但有时却好像陌生人

完全不认识。。。

只因为自己害臊，而畏惧，

不敢打招呼，

太差劲了吧。。。

现在，后悔、内疚，难过、

种种心情，无所不有。。。

后悔没有珍惜你，

内疚不曾珍惜你，

难过，失去了你。

如今，

一切一切，

已成为定局。。。

愿你在那儿，活得快乐、安稳。。。

答应我们，要天天开心哦！！

朋友，

郢兵敬上

2.34am

12 July 2009

Father Forgets

2009-07-09T14:41:00.010+08:00

This is something i would really like to share with you guys.

Father Forgets, by W. Livingston Larned

Listen, son: I am saying this as you lie asleep, one little paw crumpled under your cheek and the blond curls stickily wet on your damp forehead. I have stolen into your room alone. Just a few minutes ago, as I sat reading my paper in the library, a stifling wave of remorse swept over me. Guiltily I came to your beside.

These are the things I was thinking, son: I had been cross to you. I scolded you as you were dressing for school because you gave your face merely a dab with a towel. I took you to task for not cleaning your shoes. I called out angrily when you threw some of your things on the floor.

At breakfast I found fault, too. You spilled things. You gulped down your food. You put your elbows on the table. You spread butter too thick on your bread. And as you started off to play and I made for my train, you turned and waved a hand and called, "Goodbye, Daddy!" and i frowned, and said in reply, "Hold your shoulders back!"

Then it began all over again in the late afternoon. As I came up the road I spied you, down on your knees, playing marbles. There were holes in your stockings. I humiliated you before your boyfriends by marching you ahead of me to the house. Stockings were expensive-and if you had to buy them you would be more careful! Imagine that, son, from a father!

Do you remember, later, when I was reading in the library, how you came in timidly, with a sort of hurt look in your eyes? When I glanced up over my paper, impatient at the interruption, you hesitated at the door. " What is it you want?" I snapped.

You said nothing, but ran across in one tempestuous plunge, and threw your arms tightened with an affection that God had set blooming in our heart and which even neglect could not wither. And then you were gone, pattering up the stairs.

Well, son, it was shortly afterwards that my paper slipped from my hands and a terrible sickening fear came over me. What has habit been doing to me? The habit of finding fault, of reprimanding-this was my reward to you for being a boy. It was not that I did not love you; it was that i expected too much of youth. I was measuring you by the yardstick of my own years.

And there was so much that was good and fine and true in your character. The little heart of you was as big as the dawn itself over the wide hills. This was shown by your spontaneous impulse to rush in and kiss me good night. Nothing else matters tonight, son. I have come to your bedside in the darkness, and i have knelt there, ashamed!

It is a feeble atonement; I know you would not understand these things if I told them to you during your waking hours. But tomorrow I will be a real daddy! I will chum with you, and suffer when you suffer, and laugh when you laugh. I will bite my tongue when impatient words come. I will keep saying as if it were a ritual: "He is nothing but a boy-a little boy!"

I am afraid I have visualized you as a man. Yet as I see you now, son, crumpled and weary in your cot, I see that you are still a baby. Yesterday you were in your mother's arms, your head on her shoulder. I have asked too much, too much.

By W. Livingston Larned during the early 20th century

ShinN

3.23pm

9 July 2009

A Day Passed, Again

2009-07-08T22:43:00.003+08:00

What a Day.

From 4pm till 10.35pm.

He's sure diligent, worked for more than 6 hours to earn RM80.

Really look up to him. Tough and Strong.

Mentally tired now.

Can't wait to get in my bed.

He can surely tell i live a boring life.

As i was struggling pretty hard to entertain him.

Love Guru, CJ 7, 我猜我猜我猜猜猜，分手擂台...

Laughed, really had fun.

Fortunately, mom baked cakes and toasted some homemade bread.

Or else, he'll eat us all alive for sure.

Hope that mug of MILO worked.

Yep, it's 10.35pm.

He departed.

Soon, it was his turn as well.

Let's just call it a night, shall we?

ShinN

10.57pm

8 July 2009

It's you, My Life

2009-06-29T00:56:00.006+08:00

I want to hold your hands, and walk a mile,

Don't want to miss you, even a while.

My life is so beautiful, cause,

Dear, it's you, My Life.

Hug me for my worries to die,

My tears to dry,

and

My loneliness to fly.

It hurts me to know,

How i sometimes can be a little selfish,

When it comes to you.

I am getting sentimental over you!

For God's sake,

Please explain to me why all these.

I miss you every moment of the day,

I keep myself awake just to listen to you,

I keep myself empty just for you to fill,

I keep myself alive just to see you.

My mornings miss you,

My evenings seek you,

Where were you all these days?

Why weren't you there to wipe my tears?

The fear of future is worse than the pain of past,

Still,

I bother the least,

Cause you are there.

Even seconds are too long to miss you,

I want to hold your loving hands and walk a mile,

Don't want to miss you, even a while.

1.13am

29 June 2009

LoveE

Pop star Michael Jackson dies in Los Angeles aged 50

2009-06-26T19:37:00.005+08:00

Top Image: The body of pop singer Michael Jackson is loaded into a van to be taken to the Los Angeles County Coroner's office yesterday.

Tributes have been pouring in for pop singer Michael Jackson who died yesterday following a suspected cardiac arrest in his Bel-Air home.

The 13-time Grammy award winner Jackson was pronounced dead at 10.26 p.m. Irish time after arriving at the Ronald Reagan UCLA Medical Center in full cardiac arrest, said Fred Corral of the Los Angeles County Coroner's office.

The cause of death is not known and an autopsy is likely to take place later today, Mr Corral said.

Jackson was taken ill at home and his personal physician tried to resuscitate him but could not, his brother Jermaine told reporters. Jackson was taken by paramedics to the hospital, where doctors worked for more than an hour to try to revive him before pronouncing him dead, the brother said.

Jackson (50) became a musical icon performing with The Jackson 5, when he was just six years of age. By the time he was 11, he’d graduated from standing at the back playing the tambourine and bongos to fronting the group’s debut Motown single I Want You Back . It went to number one and Jackson’s haul of blockbuster hits begun.

But it was 1983’s Thriller which was the singer’s tour-de-force. It sold like no other album before it, amassing 60 million sales and seeing seven of the album’s nine tracks released as singles.

The next year, he unveiled his signature “moonwalk” dance move while performing Billie Jean during an NBC special.

In recent years, controversy continued to dominate his life. A 2003 television documentary, Living with Michael Jackson , claimed that Jackson still had sleepovers with young boys and had his third child with a surrogate mother, but Jackson denied these charges.

Concerns about his health had been rampant during his 2005 trial in California on charges of child sex abuse at which he was acquitted and in 2008 when he was photographed in Las Vegas in a wheelchair for reasons that were never explained.

At the time of his death, Jackson was preparing to perform 50 concerts at London’s 02 Arena.The shows, which were due to begin on July 13, sold out within hours of going on sale. AEG Live said Jackson had passed a lengthy physical exam in early 2009, before the London concerts were announced.

"For Michael to be taken away from us so suddenly at such a young age, I just don't have the words. I've lost my little brother today, and part of my soul has gone with him," said Quincy Jones, who collaborated with Jackson on three of his best-selling albums, Off the Wall, Thriller and Bad .

Michael is survived by three children: Michael Joseph Jackson, Jr., Paris Michael Katherine Jackson and Prince Michael Jackson II.

At times like this, words seem so powerless to express the thought a message like this is intended to bring. Still, perhaps you'll understand what word we must leave unspoken and know the sympathy that comes to you today!!

With my deepest sympathy in the love that surround you, may you find strength...In the memories you cherish, may you find peace...

Sleep Tight, MJ~

7.42pm
26 June 2009
A Sad Day

An Apple a Day, Keeps the Doctors Away...Wohoo

2009-06-15T01:00:00.004+08:00

I really wish i had an ipod or an iphone,

as they're really COOL product from Apple...

Totally Wicked design,

Slim and Stylish...

Perfect for a perfectionist like me...

Looks Like My Summer Vacation Is, Over.....

2009-06-15T00:50:00.004+08:00

Yep, It's 15th of June 2009,

The 1st day of the lame o' schooling days...

Haiz, can't sleep till 12 or 1 pm ler,

gotta wake up at 6 a few hours later...

Looks like my Summer vacation is,

over...

Here we go again...

Taking results, listening to those teachers crapping again...(not all of them though)

Some are quite nice to talk to...

Some other,

SPEECHLESS...

I can't say i'm looking forward to this day,

naturally, i prefer the holidays...

Despite being bored all day,

I had so much fun spending my time with friends...

When we went to jusco( for 3 or 4 times ler)

When we went to Mid Valley...

When I went to those camps...

When they came to my house...

It was all memories worth remembering,

guess it'll be stucked in my head,

till i leave the world,

Forever...

Finally, really wanna thank everyone i know,

for they really made this holiday meaningful and worth remembering...

ShinN

12.57am

15 June 2009

Limit

2009-05-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

现在，身体达到了极限...

前天(28.5.09)晚上8.45pm到(30.5.09)今早或凌晨2.20，足足29小时35分，都是活跃状态，没睡过觉...再说2.20am到6.45am的bedtime,也未免太少了吧？？

不但是扑在桌子上睡，还要喂蚊子。。。（想必蚊子先生们到今晚都不需睡了吧？？呵呵）

脚也抽筋了无数次，现在四肢酸痛之余，

脑袋很重，

心也很痛。

突变之不爽

2009-05-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

“我就知道你是酱lin diao的咯，全部都懂了…”

其母之，你现在到底什么意思哦！？！？

我全程在jusco都在为了你而担心，担心你回到学校后，剩你一个人，怎样过哦？？

一直在想办法让你在他们回到学校，即10-11点之前，不用这么孤独一个人在学校过,

连吃KFC都还在帮你想…

你爸找上门来，我就全程都在为你焦虑，担心你会被你爸”铲“得很惨，帮你想要如何要让你爸信任你…

妈的，你最后，杀出一句-“就知道你是酱lin diao 的啦，全部人都懂了…”

有没有想过我的感受的哦？？

我跟老师回家时，都一直觉得你很无辜，到头来，你真的很无辜咯，我有罪啦！！！！

屌！！！肏！！！

回到食堂，第一件事想到要做的就是帮你收拾行李，好让你明日来拿行李时，会比较方便…

我竟然还蠢到要酱贴心，再三叮咛他们三个：俊宏、德耀和祖庆明天帮你去林泉光礼堂拿水壶…

从来没想过我会为了一个朋友，酱焦虑不安咯。

从来没想过我对一个人的真诚，会换来的是那句话咯。

如果你只是泛泛之交，你觉得我会酱好吗？？

为你欢喜，为你愁？？

为了你的事，搞到好像自己的事酱，非解决不可？？

跟他们讲，是为了什么？？

原因何在？？？

简单，最单纯的为朋友的担心与焦虑,

我几怕你回家后必须面对你酱凶的老爸,你懂的没有？？？？？

而你却把我当作”傻海“，因为我一直跟人讲你被爸爸拉回家的事，令你很难堪、很没脸。

难到我不是吗？？

一回到来就跟那三个在会所讲”大件事“，讲了酱多，明知自己解说能力超弱，还拼命挣扎，希望他们明白你的

处境…

过后到学校门口时，又跟另一帮讲…

是啦是啦，我是很傻海啦，看到这个又讲，看到那个又讲，怕死全世界不懂酱…

但是，你有想过吗？？

我跟他们讲了过后，他们全部还是自己讲自己的，脸上露出的，竟还有笑容…

然后看着他们微笑着，挥挥手跟我说”掰掰“…

好像不当一回事酱…

我真的不想为酱小的事，来比较自己咯，但是，在这四四方方的电脑面前，我觉得自己无需对它有所保留咯…

我哦，去到jusco，一直到这一刻，

回到家写这blog post的这一刻，都没有笑过，跟不用说微笑了…

你觉得是因为谁？？？？？

到底是谁酱傻海噢？？

我啦，谁？？

上几次的的科学学会大型活动，你以为我真的很想打机啊？？

义卖会、test game那天，说要打机的绝对不会是我…

现在真的不想尊重任何人了，所以我要说：”多谢你，我现在在其他高委前的‘傻海打机仔‘形象，都是拜你说赐

的。“你妈的！！！！！

你以为我真的很喜欢打机咩？？

只是我觉得，既然是朋友要求，而且久久一次，将就下咯…

很多次了咯，给其他人觉得我只不过是个很不负责任的打机仔，好像吸了白粉酱，非打不可…

可以不要白痴吗？？如果人人认为我爱打机的话，我没其他话讲，但只能说我可以为了一些朋友的”爱打机“而

打机，亦可以为了他们的”想打机“而打机…

强调：现在的我，并非当年初一、初二的我了，当年的颜郢兵，的确是典型的”逃学型打机仔“…

唉~心淡了，

真的真的，以后不会再真心对待一个朋友。

在我这种”烂仔打机仔“的世界里，”好朋友“绝不存在！！！

“好朋友们，你们通通去死吧，我放弃拥有你们了！！！”

“朋友们，你们要坚强地活下来，你们就是我的全部了！！！”

（写这篇部落格时，作者听了>15次的《杨丞琳–带我走》了，

时间约10时至11时）

（当天有去camp的读者们，抱歉啦，我这种不负责任的差劲筹委，不会带给你们敬爱的学会任何进步的，所

以，你们加油吧）

突变之不爽

ShinN

11.04pm

五月最后第二日

31.5.09

My Daily Horoscope

2009-05-28T23:08:00.001+08:00

Read your new Daily Horoscopes created by ASTROLOGY.

What Are You?

2009-05-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

5月18日下午，大约三时半，回家途中，爷爷听着988.

回到我的母校，芙蓉国民华小，

等着10岁的弟弟和刚开始念小学的妹妹...

忽然, 听见熟悉的音乐，

它似两年前，由杰伦首部自导自演的电影《不能说的秘密》之主题曲，

听着Intro时，那熟悉的钢琴声，

令我有股想开口唱的冲动，反正当时车上只有我一个，

爷爷下车等弟妹去了...

正当我想把第一句，

“冷咖啡离开了杯垫我忍住的情绪在很后面”

唱出口时,

万万没想到，

在脑海里回响的竟是个约7、8岁大的小男孩声音...

我调高了音量，尝试听听自己是否听错...

没错，钢琴音的确一模一样...

只不过，那“动听”的孩子气声音，

及歌词，实在令人难以想象...

砸~《不能说的便秘》问世了...

到家，指导爷爷如何利用他手机add contacts，

洗澡，回房，赤裸裸地看着镜子，

没想到，我竟在跟镜子对话，

镜中人和我都在穿衣、裤，

但俩人的嘴巴却说个不停...

我忘了镜中人对我说过什么...

说了蛮多似乎是白痴说的话，

但至少有些还能让我听得进去...

Something's really drivin' me crazy,

Cuz i've never found myself talking to...

MYSELF!!!

What the Heck?!?

Perhaps that's what that Pikachu was talking about,

"Tekanan Emosi", remember??

I sure did,

but never had i thought of i was one of those people...

1.22am

19 May 2009

An Exciting Day At HELP

2009-04-30T18:58:00.008+08:00

I know there would be hardly someone to read all of these words, as there're more than 1000 words here, for your information. By the way, the dull and the least interesting story would surely bring you to sleep, so just stop at this point if you can't bear it.

Do proceed if you'd like.

What a day~Tired and exhausted. Yet, I enjoyed most of the day, had some fun. Well, almost...

Welcoming myself back to HELP University College, the university of achievers. Initially, i thought it would be great, as i didn't need to attend classes while the others needed...However, I didn't think that it would be this tiring after listening attentively during the whole Grand Finals of the debate, and recording the whole debate(Well, not whole actually) with my w890i's built in 3.2 mega pixels camera.

I haven't seen the recorded clip, but i don't expect it to be a good clip as i was sitting at the 3rd row from the back, and there was this Indian teacher who sat in front of me...With his big head and dark, black, curly hair right in front of me, i had a hard time trying to find a suitable angle to record the debating process, which was a extremely high standard debate you wouldn't want to miss. FYI(For your information), the phrase [extremely high standard debate] wasn't what i would have said to myself, but to every member in the hall, even to the foreigner who was a Britain and The Manager of Edexcel. I personally liked this {Ang Mo} as in Hokkien, during the time when he gave his speech, everyone clapped the most when he gave several compliment for us Malaysians. Some were about HELP University College(I didn't know it was such a well-known university until he spoke), some were about how was the debate which he complimented with the [extremely high standard debate] in comparison with the debates in England, he also said our debate here could be equivalent to one of the highest standard debates in England, which made me to be proud of Malaysia for the 1st time for whatever reason. And his speech was full of And Mo accent, that's why the whole crowd was listening so attentively that i couldn't bear the quietness of the hall. LOL

SMK Assunta VS SMK King George V. Does the school King George V ring a bell? For guys like me who has been living in Seremban since i was 5, it certainly does sound familiar...It's actually KGV, a school full of scholars in my opinion. Now, back to the debate, the representatives' English of both schools were certainly good in the sense that they can speak fluently. Despite the minor short pauses during their speeches, their mastery grammar and vocabulary were superb and spectacular, without a single doubt. I do wish if i were they, and wish i could speak as good as them. I do wish i could type more about the whole process and the title of the debate, but, as a matter of fact, i couldn't...Gotta ask the others for today's debate title as i could only follow up what exactly they were trying to argue only when the 2nd speakers of both teams started to speak, not that they didn't say clearly, it's just that i only had the faintest idea of what the hell was the title when the 1st speakers of both the Government and the Opposition started to speak.

Without further delay, i think i should just announce the results to my fellow readers. At last, the results were announced by the England/British Silver-haired guy(which i had mentioned above, the Manager of Edexcel). It was SMK King George V(KGV) who won the competition, Well Done. I did feel sorry for SMK Assunta as they were also good and they did well too, they were so close to winning, it was a tight match, actually. Both teams did exceptionally well. Actually, i myself wanted the Assunta team to win as their team were all consisting of the opposite sex(FYI, their school isn't a co-ed school like ours in Chung Hua, Assunta's a girls' school). The 1st speaker was somehow pretty and kinda cute, and i found myself can't stop looking at her attractive appearance, wtf, lol, she got me completely mesmerised. And i felt a little bad after the debate and the prize giving ceremony ended, cuz i found our that she was taller than me, damn it, no chance jor, lol...

Fortunately, her fellow teammates were not as tall as her, and they were quite, errr... short...or...not tall....=] And i immediately grab the opportunity to congratulate them and shook my hand with them. Hey, they got the 1st runner up, it's simple manners to congratulate people, right? ^^ Seems like i left out the prize giving...But i'm not gonna go into the details of the prize giving, i'm just gonna tell you the prizes given...

For SMK Assunta who got the 1st runner up, they got themselves certificates, cash worth RM3000 and scholarships worth RM 10000(if i hadn't mistaken for the actual value) if they intend to further their studies at HELP University College, of course. As for the Grand Prize Winners, they got themselves each a Sony Erricson hand phone, a BENQ digital camera, a certificate, a LCD television, a desktop computer, cash worth RM 5000 and scholarships worth RM 15000(again, if i hadn't mistaken) By the way, i don't think the LCD TV and computer are taken back to one of the debater's home for their personal home usage. I personally think they are for their school, which will be added to one of the properties of KGV from today.

Refreshments were already served before the prize giving ceremony ended. We queued up and were given some food, including curry puffs, sandwiches and a egg-tart/ blueberry tart or whatever you call it. The tart was exceptionally good, but i didn't bother to Q-up another time to just eat another tart. Instead, i took myself a cup of coffee and then a cup of tea before we chatted with Mr Lim Yee Huat about A' Levels. He then leaded us to his ex-colleague's office to let us know more about A' Levels. Dunno why the hell we were starting to worry about our future roads and studies, we inquired what we wanted to know. (Before we went up the stairs, Mr Lim actually congratulated the Assunta team, as i've mentioned above. So that was the chance i was saying, which i immediately said "Gratz" and shook hands with HER...or them...)

We had a short QnA session with Mr Lim's former colleague. Then it was time to leave, going up the van, and departed for Seremban. This was when things started to go bad, i borrowed a phone from Joel, called my KIND and LOVING grandpa. I asked Sooooo politely, '阿公，你可以来载我吗？' He sounded sleepy and claimed that he was already waiting in school. I could immediately sense he's furious and angry about something. Nevertheless, i kept quiet in the phone as i could hardly hear what he was trying to say in the phone, as the line wasn't good at that time, i suppose. I dunno wtf he was saying, but i thought i heard something like this : he waited for half an hour in school and to no avail, i was nowhere to be seen. Then, he went back to try to take a rest, or nap as we call it. I didn't want to bother about that, which i wasn't sure about what i heard. The thing i heard clearly was what he said initially, he was already waiting in the canteen, and the last thing he said was, “OK啦，在食堂等！” And then i hung up the phone as he was crapping a lot in the phone and i didn't want to hear anymore about it.

When i arrived in school, and thanked the Indian driver before getting down from the van, the familiar green coloured Myvi was nowhere to be seen. Initially, i thought he was on his way, despite him saying he was already waiting, i waited, trying my patience, eh? And then i made a second call as i was afraid i didn't hear clearly what he said on the phone and wanted to make sure i was waiting at the correct place. Fortunately, i was correct and then there he goes again, trying to crap on the phone. I already knew i had to have a little argument or quarrel with him in the car, which was the journey back home. Yep, we really had. Sorry that i don't pay much respect whenever someone intends to quarrel or scold me. My deepest apologies, but i really can't tolerate bullets firing towards me and i have to try to dodge them when i'm way too tired to even move my limbs. So couldn't he just concentrate driving the car and just cut the crap off?? What a grumpy old man he is...

And back home, taken my shower, had my dinner, and here I am, spent more than an hour typing this freakishly long post.( approximately 1.6k words, if you've read till this point. And for those whose English are good and among the best, please ignore my mistakes, it would be kind of you to point them out to me. But no thanks, really. You can't blame me for my lousy English as i've already admitted that i AM NOT AS GOOD AS YOU THINK, and I don't really have the energy and time to re-read and check my posts before posting them.)

ShinN

8.51pm

The Last Night of April 2009

开不了口

2009-04-22T23:15:00.001+08:00

才离开没多久就开始

担心今天的你过得好不好

整个画面是你

想你想的睡不著

嘴嘟嘟那可爱的模样

还有在你身上香香的味道

我的快乐是你想你想的都会笑

没有你在我有多难熬

(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)

没有你烦我有多烦恼

(没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)

穿过云层我试著努力向你奔跑

爱才送到你却已在别人怀抱

就是开不了口让她知道

我一定会呵护著你也逗你笑

你对我有多重要

我后悔没让你知道

安静的听你撒娇

看你睡著一直到老

就是开不了口让她知道

就是那么简单几句我办不到

整颗心悬在半空

我只能够远远看著

这些我都做得到

但那个人已经不是我

没有你在我有多难熬

(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)

没有你烦我有多烦恼

(没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)

穿过云层我试著努力向你奔跑

爱才送到你却已在别人怀抱

就是开不了口让她知道

我一定会呵护著你也逗你笑

你对我有多重要

我后悔没让你知道

安静的听你撒娇

看你睡著一直到老

就是开不了口让她知道

就是那么简单几句我办不到

整颗心悬在半空

我只能够远远看著

这些我都做得到

但那个人已经不是我

Days

2009-04-21T16:31:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, JOY.

Today, SORROW.

Tomorrow, A-NEW-HOPE

Again?

2009-04-11T02:41:00.004+08:00

Took his hand, touched his heart.

You were always there,

By his side.

Sometimes,

You would bring him towards the beautiful heaven,

full of joy and happiness;

Or,

You would bring him down the deepest abyss,

full of sadness and sorrow...

But it's alright,

whenever you're with him...

You got him hypnotised,

completely mesmerised,

But you would never know...

In his eyes,

he's screaming for a mere glance of you...

In his bed,

he's staying awake as he's always thinking about you...

In his dreams,

he's starring to be a clown for you...

In his life,

he's dying to do anything,

just for you...

Nonetheless,

The possibility that you would ever feel the same way about him,

is hardly possible...

ShinN

3.13am

11 April 2009

Hectic Lifestyle

2009-04-03T20:20:00.004+08:00

ClasseS

Monday ~ Biology

Tuesday ~ English

Wednesday ~ Malay

Thursday ~ -

Friday ~ Account

Saturday ~ Chinese

Sunday ~ Guitar

Hectic, eh??

And now, health condition's deteriorating...

Coughing and Running Nose...

For a whole week jor...

Hou San Fu arh~~~~

Get into my dreamland also so hard jor...

The heat's drivin' me crazy every night...

It made me turn off the air-con which i am not used to doing...

And somehow i feel that my house's atmosphere is freakishly stuffy...

Breathing difficulties...

Haiz...

Nothin' is impossible,

Impossible is nothin'.

I used to believe in this...

but, not anymore...

As i grow, i soon found out that...

Certain things aren't as easy as you think...

Somethin' is also pretty difficult to achieve too...

Lol...

perhaps i'm just typing randomly...

or maybe they're the truths...

Haha ^^

ShinN

8.59pm

3 April 2009

After The 60minutes Ended

2009-03-28T21:48:00.004+08:00

Yep, it's ended...

i think i did something meaningful...

Turning off the lights upstairs before the Earth Hour even started,

then i went downstairs to watch the 8TV show,

as i was curious of how they were gonna cease the transmission...

Through the LIVE transmission,

i saw hundreds or thousands of people gathering outside Berjaya Times Square,

each of them holding a candle...

The host said they were gonna walk around the city for an hour,

in order to show support towards the campaign...

After the 10 seconds countdown,

The turning-off of the lights was unforgettable,

Several screenshots of different places in our country were showed...

It was truly an unforgettable moment,

even for me,

who was just in front of the TV...

Then,

they finally ended the transmission at 8.31 or the 32nd minute, i think...

Quickly, my eldest bro turned off the TV and we both went upstairs...

Fact: i couldn't turn off the lights downstairs as my maid hasn't finished doing the housework at that moment, and when i tried to turn off the lights outside, my maid stopped me as they said it was for safety reasons...Ok, no objection there...

Went upstairs, the younger one was trying to sleep(He IS sleeping now)

My elder bro and I were trying to find something to do,

but to no avail, there was nothing we could do as there ain't electricity at home...

I thought i could also get to sleep like my younger brother was trying...

Neh, couldn't,

I just couldn't go to sleep that early...

Hence, i suggested to my elder bro that we go cycling around the neighbourhood,

That'll be fun as i could see the whole neighbourhood turning their lights off, i thought...

However, the younger one woke up all of a sudden,(this was when i found out he wasn't sleeping at all)

and he said that my bike's tyre is burst,

air can't be pumped in no matter how hard grandpa tried...

I was in deep thought for a while,

and a light bulb 'appeared' above my head.

'Why don't we go take a walk, around the neighbourhood?' i suggested with a grin.

Soon, 3 of us came to an agreement and decided to go out and stroll...

After informing the maids,

we went out...

Curiously, we walked,

to see if everyone was doing their part in supporting the campaign...

I'm glad that most of the residents in my residential area did...

We walk to Taman Makmur, Taman Templer(where my grandpa's and my 'old house' were situated) and lastly the roundabout at Mon't Jed...

FYI(For your information),

these residential areas aren't as far as you think,

they're just near,

really really near,

if you get what i mean...

We came out about a quarter to nine,

and finally reached home at 9.18pm, to be exact...

And we took a rest, before we turned on the TV and see how 8TV continued to broadcast again...

I didn't know what my bros where doing upstairs when we were resting ourselves...

But, i knew i was cutting and trying to eat an orange downstairs,

in the kitchen...

It was really dark,

Dark like when an eclipse falls...

I was afraid of i would get my fingers cut,

but i thought,

it was worth the try...

Hence, i cut the orange to four equal quarters,

and ate them, of course...

Phew, Fortunately...

and then,

here i am,

turning on the computer and typing here...

Exclusively brought to you by,

ShinN

10.14pm

28 March 2009

After Earth Hour Ended

Earth Hour 2009

2009-03-28T20:16:00.003+08:00

It's lights off for an hour tonight - for a good cause.

Several companies and agencies have thrown their weight behind the Earth Hour 2009 campaign by pledging to turn off lights from 8.30pm to 9.30pm.

The campaign, an annual event initiated by the WWF(World Wide Fund for Nature) in 2007 to get households and businesses to turn off non-essential lights for an hour, aims to raise awareness about global climate change.

Now that you're aware of the global warming and the dramatic climate change, why not do our part in protecting our only home - the Earth?

Our effort may be small. However, i believe a small effort can make a big difference in the fight against global warming.

Turn off the non-essential lights now, shall we?

ShinN

8.26pm

28 March

Earth Hour 2009

Life Ain't Easy

2009-03-28T01:40:00.003+08:00

'Long time no see, Canteen'

that's what i tried to converse to the Canteen,

when i came down from the familiar staircase,

it feels strange...

'How long has it been since i came down here and had a meal?'

as i walk,

'two months, i think'

'Nay, on second thought, it's only 1 month'

I bought a plate of Nasi Lemak, which is my favourite, and really enjoyed it.

'How long has it been since my stomach felt so full?'

It was really satisfying,

to be full...

Ever since that day,

I decided not to use money if i have an option,

Cuz i have not much money left...

I could have been sad and angry right now,

that my dad doesn't wanna give me pocket money for this month...

I was rather unsatisfied and furious,

but not now...

Y'know why i love the piano?

i always did,

cuz it always has a nice, soothing effect...

Okay, despite not playing the piano,

I could always listen to it, k?

I've already forgotten the reason that dad of mine doesn't want to give me what he ought to give, as a parent...

Perhaps i don't even know why...

A mere guess would do the trick at these times,

maybe due to the overuse of the phone...

Dunno, i know that i spent beyond the limit,

i know it's my fault for spending that much...

but do you really have to do this?

withdrawing the SIM card is okay for me now,

it matters but there's nothing i can do...

But do you really have to do this???

Not giving pocket money as well???

I don't get it, are you calling me to die???

Cuz these days, i think i'm falling sick as i didn't have my breakfast and lunch...

The dinner was a relieve as i thought i finally had something to eat...

But it didn't last long till i felt hungry again...

Living without a phone,

they thought it doesn't really matter,

for a mere child or student like me...

But it matters,

it affects,

it's a nuisance,

which changes everything...

the distance,

So close, yet,

So far...

A gap is born...

Recently, some of my friends have been complaining why hadn't i replied their messages...

Sorry, guys,

cuz i can't help it...

Some of you said i should go get a SIM card, which is quite affordable now...

Well, the word "affordable"

isn't in my dictionary, not now,

not this time...

As I've mentioned above,

i have not much money left...

You expect me to buy a SIM card and use it like i don't care?

No...

Absolutely not, i ain't nuts, not just yet...

Perhaps till the day,

when someone gives me pocket money again,

i'll be back...

PLEASE

Do Not Think That I'm Ignoring You,

It's just that i can't do anything about it...

Life really ain't easy, right?

ShinN

2.36am

28 March 2009

A Twist In My Day

2009-03-21T18:36:00.004+08:00

Looking out the window, they embarked...

They thought i didn't want to go...

Why wouldn't i want to go?

I wanted, y'know?

It's just because my younger cousin sister's here, staying at our house since Wednesday till tomorrow...

She's only eight, okay?

Well, the irresponsible adults thought they could bring her along and ask if there are any more tickets left when they reach there, Bukit Jalil National Stadium...

Shouldn't they just think carefully?

What if there aren't any tickets left?

What are ya gonna do?

Leave her alone?

Out of the enormous stadium?

Initially, there was another suggestion...

Leave her with the maids at home?

Like hell she would know how to MIX with my maids...

They don't even know each other, unlike my sister, which was younger than my cousin sister for a year, FYI.

How is she gonna pass the time till we come back?

And they aren't even asking why didn't i want to go...

For obvious reasons(as mentioned above), that's why...

And I'm already way too tired after getting my hair cut...

It was about 45 minutes to an hour, I guess...

Cause my mom who is a stingy person when it comes to our daily needs or supplies...

She wanted to save money, and hence brought me there to have my hair cut...

RM3 for a trainee hairdresser, barber, or hairstylist, or whatever you call them to cut my hair...

Man,

I thought she would get my hair done in a blink of an eye...

Nevertheless,

It didn't turn out as I expected...

She cut, for a little while,

And then asked her mentor, or the professionals' opinion...

And continued to cut again...

Ask, cut, ask, cut....

This cycle has been repeated for dunno how many times....

And I've finished scanning through a magazine, and read about it...

Tired of waiting,

My mom is always impatient,

And she was also the lazy one,

She ordered my little cousin sister and my sister to come up looking for me and ask me if I'm done...

For 2 times, they came up,

Asking how many minutes more they have to wait...

LOL, all of the trainees and professional were looking at them...

But they didn't even show any sign of being afraid...

They were just running up and down, smiling all the time...

Finally, it was the last time they two came up,

They handed me a phone and informed me that my mom called me to phone her after i'm done...

Immediately, i was then "=="

Damn it,

Can't she just wait for a little longer?

After all, it was her idea to bring me here to cut,

Not that I wanted to be brought here...

Phew,

Finally, I'm done,

After paying the 3 ringgits,

I walked out and looked at the time,

Wow, it's already 5:04pm...

Quickly, i started to call my house phone number...

Again, "Damn it"

The line couldn't get through...

I retried for 5 times, and fortunately, i heard my bro's voice...

He was told to let his mama know that I'm done...

Patiently, i waited,

But the cruel Sun was blazing,

scorching the ground under my feet...

Besides i was way too tired already...

About five minutes, i waited...

And my drive home was finally here...

Now back at home,

After taking my shower,

it was already 5.32pm...

I jumped onto my bed, and tried to sleep,

as my eyes were really really damned tired...

I closed my eyes,

and gradually fell to sleep...

All of a sudden,

a familiar, yet, soft voice came to my ears...

She woke me up and told me to have my dinner...

OK, i woke up,

However, i wasn't ready for dinner...

Cause i didn't wanna have it...

Closed my eyes, AGAIN~

Then, i was waken up for a few times later...

Thus, i made up my mind...

For my cousin sister's sake,

I decided not to go...

Perhaps they just thought i didn't want to go, for no reason...

Actually, i wanted someone to ask me to go, and think of a solution so that all of us could go together...

But, none of them turned up and ask...

Except for one little girl,

Which made me grin~

She asked if i wanna go,

i didn't answer..

I asked her back, the same question...

Cause if she wants to go, i have no choice but to stay at home...

At last, she walked out of my room,

and darted towards the MPV...

Yep,

And they're gone,

towards the stadium,

to watch Disney On Ice...

Lol,

it's already 7.30pm,

They should have arrived by now...

As they're started their journey an hour ago...

Hopefully, they enjoyed the show...^^

Unlike me...

Will this holiday end without any memories to be remembered?

Yep, i think so...

ShinN

7.33pm

21 March 2009

[The Day I Missed A Show]

FaitH FadeS

2009-03-14T01:51:00.007+08:00

Exam's finally over...

This exam's nothing at all...

It was just a mere test...

Which i didn't really care...

Look,

I did my best in studying, alright?

Even for the biology test,

Which i only scored 12 marks out of 100...

That test was held right after that night he slapped and withdrew the SIM card...

I really hate it when he says everything in the house is his property and belongs to him...

Oh, never mind that...

As a result of the misfortune of mine,

I went to bed really early that day,

Which was 10.15pm...

And i woke up early at dawn to study,

I simply doubt anyone knew about that...

Besides,

I didn't even walk out of the class during the recess,

Just to read and revise that lame ol' Biology...

Well,

After getting the results,

I thought i shouldn't have studied anyway,

It made no difference at all...

Look,

I don't care if i get good or bad grades...

I don't care if my parents are upset...

I don't care if my parents are frustrated...

I don't care if i get scolded...

The way they act...

The way they talk...

The way they punish...

The way they teach...

The way they converse...

The way they react...

They're totally freakin' me out!!

Nevertheless,

After all these years,

I've been through what i had to...

Now,

I'm used to the yelling,

I'm used to the shouting,

I'm used to the staring,

I'm used to the glaring,

Which really pisses me off!!

Have they ever tried to understand?

Don't even think about it...

Well,

Do you comprehend?

I wish you did...

ShinN

2.32am

1st day of the boring holiday

14 March 2009

伤

2009-02-24T21:51:00.007+08:00

你有试过被父母盖过巴掌吗？？

其实，

在我家，

这已经不是什么大事了，

发生了无数次...

难道这不是家暴吗？？

或许你们会说不是...

但若你有机会看看以前我们老爸如何对待我们几兄弟，

我想，

你就算死，

也不会想成为我老爸的儿女吧...

不不，

在我家，

女生的待遇会好很多...

就像我妹妹和两位女佣...

男丁？？

恩...生路自己找吧...

昨天，纪宝贝生日，

哈，我在星期日冒着倾盆大雨去帮她买礼物叻，

她的生日，

重要得很，

当然不能马虎啊~

恩，白天到晚上十点一直都很开心地过着...

十点过后，

就不是那么好受~

俗语说：家丑不可外扬，不是吗？？

可是我觉得，

把自己想跟人诉说的事憋在心里，

把它当成秘密，守到永远，

我受不了耶~

真的真的，

很不好受，

在这家，

好辛苦~

我一直以来都对我爸没什么好感，

如果要我跟我爸谈心事，甚至到拥有相同的兴趣可以高谈阔论，

简直是妄想！

再说他E.Q.并没有像他所说的那么高...

昨晚，

他只是为了要让我做个好榜样给我弟弟看，让他们温习功课，

就在我玩电脑玩得非常兴奋的时候，

竟然叫我关电脑...

难道他不曾想过，

我不需要休息吗？？

就当我松弛心情也不行吗？？

我昨天下午回到家，

洗澡吃面包（午餐），

就睡觉了耶~

随着便补习，

九点半补完，

回来再吃晚饭...

坐在电脑面前不到三分钟，

老爸你要滥用权力来关电脑？？

太过分了吧？？

而且已经不是第一次了...

第一次也罢，

谁叫你要做我老爸，

好啊，

第一次就算了...

可是你还来第二次？？

说弟弟会看我玩导致他们不会温习？？

看来我骂你“白痴”也不算是错吧？？

还常说自己是大学生，用你的猪脑想想吧！

难道我关了电脑，弟弟们就会在十点多继续读书温习功课吗？？

难道我关了电脑，弟弟们就会考第一名吗？？

说什么不要在你面前玩？？

猪哦你？

不要过来啊！！

过来这边干嘛？？

生我们出来就可以为说欲为、跟孩子们动粗吗？？？

天天回到家大喊大叫，你的“关心”方式也未免太好~~~了吧？？

怕死全世界不懂你有嘴巴酱~

说你一句“白痴”就要动粗哦？？

拜托，脾气暴躁就别学人家出来混，

更何况已经身为人父了，

天天把自己变得三岁小孩酱，

“This computer belongs to me！”

“I bought it！”

“If you don't like to stay here, get out of this house！！”

“Give me back my phone！！Return it to me now！！”

我答道：“Excuse me, when did you buy this phone?? As a matter of fact, my maternal grandma bought it in London, where were you on last Christmas?? Grandma bought it on Christmas..."

当时，这男人还真爱面子，看看他怎么说-：“Give me back my SIM card now!!"

我直接给那“白痴”砸到，从来没有看过酱爱面子的男“孩”，幼稚到~~~~~

若你要说我不尊敬长辈，我绝对无言..

因为如果你不是我老爸，

我必定赌上性命，跟你打个你死我活...

你之前打过我无数次，也曾因为一些小事，

把咱们几兄弟逐出家门，

我都记得...

有机会的话，

我会计划把你这老豆子送进老人院参观下，

一天也好，

一星期也好，

随你~

让你体验+品尝当初你为了一些芝麻小事赶我出家，害我得投靠朋友的那天，

还要我心不甘，情不愿地跟你道歉，

我呸！！！

你昨晚的这一巴掌，

我铭记于心，

你一定后悔！！

因此，现在的我，真的没电话用了...

我知道这世上，没有人会找我，

但若有事的话，拨我家里电话吧~

抱歉...

历史可以被原谅，

但不可被遗忘...

出之王淑慧师

ShinN

11.17pm

24.2.2009

[The Chaining of Memories]

2009-02-13T23:45:00.010+08:00

A scattered dream is like a far-off memory,

A far-off memory is like a scattered dream...

I wanna line the pieces up,

Yours...

and mine...

ShinN

12.00am

Valentine's Day

14.February.2009

LuV

2009-02-13T23:13:00.004+08:00

It's gonna be 14th of February later,

Just a couple of minutes left,

It's Valentine's Day,

Again...

I've never thought of having a valentine or lover,

Cause,

I always thought,

Who would even like a nobody like me?

No looks,

No nothing,

For me,

Girls are so realistic nowadays,

No money no talk?

No looks no talk?

Is money that important?

Are looks that vital?

I've been wondering,

Would I always be single,

Till i'm old enough to die?

I've been wondering,

I love kids and children so much,

Would I marry my dearest one?

And,

Deliver some cute little lives into the world?

I've been wondering,

Would I be able to say some very special words to a girl?

It may seem wierd or awkward to say these things right now,

As we're only some 16-year-old teenagers,

We're immature yet, right?

But I don't know why the hell was i thinking,

Thinking about these sort of things when the time isn't right yet,

I dunno,

Perhaps it's just something which made me feel I'm lack of love,

From my parents?

From my siblings?

From my friends?

Don't know...

Don't wanna know...

IF LOVE IS ETERNAL,

LET'S MAKE IT LAST FOREVER~

ShinN

11.44pm

13-February-2009

CnY

2009-01-29T18:02:00.006+08:00

Do you have any idea how this year's Chinese New Year Holiday goes?

Well, for me,

It simply sucks...

So lame,

So bored,

I have nothing to do all day,

Except sitting in front of this boring computer thingy,

What else can i do?

Pathetic family reunion dinner,

The food wasn't as good as i expected it to be,

And it cost a lot too...

Besides,

There was hardly anyone else who visited us this year,

BORING~

Cause lesser ang pau's were given this year,

Which means,

Lousy earnings this year...

Now that i started to notice,

As years pass,

The CnY atmosphere around the city, the streets, the neighbourhood,

It isn't what it should have been anymore...

LAME~

By the way,

There was something which sucked the most,

which also happened yesterday,

I text-ed 5 people yesterday,

morning till the afternoon,

But,

No one replied me,

PATHETIC!!

Well, if you're really really busy,

you could've at least replied saying that you're busy or ain't free to chat...

DAMN IT!!

Speaking of which,

Fortunately,

There was something i could do yesterday,

I washed 3 cars yesterday,

Which i somehow enjoyed,

I did it with the assistance and help from my siblings,

And the respective owners of the cars, of course...

First,

It was a Honda City,

Well, we easily finished the job,

As it wasn't as dirty as the other Made-in-Malaysia vehicles...

The second one was a Proton Perdana,

This was freakishly dirty,

Eeewww,

The dirt and oil which was left on the rims totally needs to be cleaned,

As i was the eldest among my siblings,

I had to volunteer to do the job,

I scrubbed, scrubbed and scrubbed...

Mopped, mopped and mopped...

Washed, washed and washed...

Finally,

It was done...

Congrats me for my hands were very very oily,

Which took me lots of time to wash them out...

Finally, it was time for my uncle's Proton Waja,

From the experience we've just learnt from those 2,

The job was perfectly done,

That metallic silver Waja is as good as new...

Which my uncle used it to drive me back here to Seremban this afternoon...

Bla Bla Bla,

And i thought i had something to do after coming back from Bahau, my grandparent's place,

Unfortunately,

Coming back is a terribly wrong idea,

I thought my friends and old classmates, which also happened to be my neighbours would be free for me to visit...

Nah, they're just busy like always, which makes me feel extraordinarily LONELY...

Alone at home now,

What can i do?

Any suggestions?

ShinN

6.29pm

29.1.2009

What I've Been Looking For

2009-01-22T19:00:00.003+08:00

It's hard to believe,

That I couldn't see,

You were always there beside me...

Thought i was alone,

With no one to hold,

But you were always right beside me...

This feeling's like no other,

I want you to know that I've never had someone,

As good for me as you,

No one like you...

So lonely before,

Now,

I've finally found,

What I've been looking for...

ShinN

7.11pm

22.January.2009

I Wish...

2009-01-10T22:24:00.004+08:00

On my birthday,

I blew the candles,

But,

I didn't make any wish...

So,

I decided to make my wishes here,

Which i thought i wanted to post them here yesterday,

But I overslept after weeping,

Hence,

I'm going to post them all here,

Trying really hard to recall and remember these wishes...

Greedy, eh?

Wishing so many wishes in a day...

I wish I could see you right away,

I wish I could knew how you felt,

I wish I could look you in the eyes,

I wish I could talk to you everyday,

I wish I had an Apple,

I wish I had an ipod,

I wish I had some money,

I wish I had intelligence,

I wish I had no curly hair,

I wish I had an older brother,

I wish I had an older sister,

I wish I had a twin brother like my brothers,

I wish I hadn't hurt anyone,

I wish I knew everyone,

I wish I knew how to play the drums,

I wish I knew how to play the piano,

I wish I knew how to play the guitar,

I wish I knew how to play basketball,

I wish I knew how to play football,

I wish I knew how to play squash,

I wish I knew who stole my phone,

I wish I knew where my phone is,

I wish I knew myself,

I wish I was good looking,

I wish I was diligent,

I wish I was clever,

I wish I was slim,

I wish I wasn't greedy,

I wish I wasn't alone,

I wish I wasn't shy,

I wish I wasn't idiotic,

I wish I loved my family,

I wish I ain't emotional,

I wish there was love between me and my family,

I wish there was someone I could talk to,

I wish Malaysia was a better country to live in,

I wish you were there when i fell,

I wish someone knew how i felt,

I wish someone knew what i should do,

I wish Sandy Claws was real,

I wish Zeus was real,

I wish Hercules was real,

I wish Sora was real,

I wish King Mickey was real,

I wish Goofy was real,

I wish Donald was real,

I wish Aladdin was real,

I wish Genie was real,

I wish Peter Pan was real,

I wish Tinker Bell was real,

I wish all good guys in any legend or fairy tale were real,

I wish all gods and angels in any myth truly existed,

I wish YOU were my angel...

ShinN

1.21 a.m.

11.Jan.2009

[Because of You]

2009-01-09T00:29:00.004+08:00

Well,

I haven't been doing this,

I mean, turning on my PC ,

And typing like this for the past few days since school reopened...

The reason is unknown,

Perhaps doctors or those specialists know...

Maybe it's because i slept very "early" during the holidays...

The earliest was 3am, and the latest was 10am...

Pretty BAD, eh?

I know it's not very good to sleep that late,

But it can't be helped during the holidays, y'know?

This had been affecting me since school reopened...

It happens like this:

I come back from school about 4-5pm daily,

After taking my shower,

I take a "nap" immediately,

It sure is a long nap....

I usually wake up at 10pm to 10.30pm...

WTF?

This is supposed to be the time people start to go to bed, not to be awake!!!

Now,

The dinner thinggy is the major problem...

Or should i call it "supper"?

I don't know...

It doesn't make sense...

Anyway, i call it dinner...

After dinner, it's likely to be 11pm...

I assume that you all know that this is the first time i turned on the computer since school reopened, as mentioned from the beginning...

So, what was i doing for the past few nights, or midnights, or mornings?(whatever you call them)

You have no idea how 'diligent' i am, y'know?

I read about Sejarah's Ancient Civilisation of Mesopotamia,(it was until page 16)

I looked up the dictionary to do both the Chinese Workbooks...(this, is pretty hard, for a guy who doesn't know Chinese like me)

I did 11 pages of the English Grammar Workbook...(it was simple)

I read Sonnet 18 from the Literature, Selected Poems & Short Stories Form 4...(Personally, i don't really like Shakespeare's work, his poems and plays...Cuz for a English learner like me, it's quite difficult for me to comprehend what's the message he's trying to bring to us readers, i don't know what's he trying to say, no idea, that's why i hate)

However, the teacher's gonna teach us about this so called 'Sonnet 18' today, that's why i read it...

I read a few pages of 'Bukit Kepong', as i wanted to improve my Malay, but it didn't turn up that well, Novel's written in Malay is just to dull for an English lover like me, so i decided a few pages is already more than enough...

Some of you might have known that i bought 'The Chronicles of Narnia' last year, i thought i could finish it during the holidays, unfortunately, i didn't...I spent most of my time in front of this rectangular monitor of mine, which hurt my eyes, of course, but it didn't really matter...

As a result, i read it during this few days, I've only finished 2 stories of 7...I'm reading the 3rd one-'The Horse & His Boy' at the moment...

I even played with my Nintendo DS for the 1st night, which was on 5th of January, as there was really nothing i could do...

But for the few nights later on, i only focused on my studies and novels as well, of course...

Guess what time i tried to go to bed yesterday?

It was 4.06am, but i eventually slept half an hour later or so...

Perhaps the 'hardworking' me only appears at night, which made me lazy, tired and sleepy during daytime...

That's why i have to use a huge amount of energy to concentrate and focus in class, i feel like I'm already ill, or something is wrong with my body...

Now, i really want to listen to 'S.O.S' from The Jonas Brothers...

S.O.S

Help!!

ShinN

1.17am

9-1-2009

If Only....

2009-01-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

It seemed so real,

Everthing seemed so real,

Everone there seemed so real,

But in the end,

I came to realise that,

Things seemed real because,

It was only a dream...

If only that would happen in reality...

The Nightmare Before New YeaR

2008-12-31T22:27:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the worst day ever...

7 A's was good enough, but a B in Malay???

I just can't accept this, the only subject i had tuition, and i got a B??

What the hell has happened?? XIn Ning getting straight A was normal, she deserves it, so did Henry, his full A's was still acceptable, but what the????

Even that pipsqueak Pingping got 8 A's, those SMK's former classmates are getting straight A's too?? What in the world.....it was the worst nightmare ever...

Bahasa Malaysia is the worst and most idiotic language ever, who needs it??

Well, i don't...

{What A Freak I am}

2008-11-24T01:57:00.005+08:00

First of all, i would like to thank you for vieiwing my blog...But, what i want to let you know is: My blog is not meant to be shown to anyone, you can read it, of course, if you really want to...Therefore, if you feel really uncomfortable reading my blog, just close this webpage, i don't really mind anyway...Ultimately, the purpose i write blogs is just to express myself, to tell how i feel...

Some of you might have noticed, my blogs are often or always full of sadness...Well, to be honest, i rarely talk about things which made me happy, cause i don't really know how to write about happiness...I know happiness is a wonderful thing to be written, but i just don't know how, to express...

And some of you might ask why don't i update my blog often...Well, i guess i don't feel like it right now, to do all these stuff, like my friends did...You see, I am not that kind of guy who concentrates on appearance or covers, although i would really much like myself to look good, to look nice...

However, as i grow, i slowly realise that that would only be a dream, a fantasy...I've benn hurt for so many many times, i'll be sad, but thrust me, i'll get over it soon enough...

So, if you've met me in person, you'll know i ain't that kind of nice looking guy at all, cuz i don't do all those hair-styling and stuffs...As a result, the same goes to my blog...I am not like other bloggers, who spend time decorating their blogs, looking for some dazzling wallpapers, some other nice sentences to attract the readers...

Thanks for my teammates/friends who have been playing computer games with me since last year, i enjoyed and appreciate that, thank you...But, not this time, nor yesterday's game, nor the day before yesterday's game...I don't know what the heck is happening to me, but, i don't feel like playing with you guys anymore...I may look like i don't seem to care about winning or losing, but, in reality, i care...

It seems like, every time i play with you guys, we'll lose...Perhaps it's my fault, i guess...So that's why i prefer to play alone right now, only those Somebody-I-Don't-Know are gonna blame me, i won't have to blame myself again, for doing noob acts in those games...Sorry to let you all down, 3Zs' , really sorry...I shall withdraw myself from the team, i suppose, although we won today...I would like to praise myself for today's peformance, perhaps it's the best cuz i somehow enjoyed the process of gaming today...

I had a misunderstanding with her today, which made me furious and sad as well...But, i got over it quickly, and apologized for misunderstanding her...I'm glad she understands...

Ray, i'm glad you called on 22th of November, which was the night before yesterday...Seems like you really treat my as one of your friends, i feel fortunate...Those days when you stepped into my house, i would never forget, cuz i consider you as one of my best and true friends...I can tell that you miss us and you'll promise not to forget us...If you really wanna go to Singapore, work hard for it, i know you'll get there someday, i'll be cheering for you...

A Friend will always be supporting you, no matter what you're doing...

A Friend won't be forgetting your name, no matter where you are...

A Friend will always be right there cheering for you, no matter what happens...

I wish i were these kind of FRIEND, do you?

ShinN

2:39am

24~November~2008

(Sorry if there are any subjects or materials which made you uncomfortable or uneasy, my deepest apologies for that...N' sorry if there are any grammar mistakes or spellings, if it is something that matters)

[突然累了]

2008-11-11T15:06:00.002+08:00

已经一个礼拜没有动这台电脑了，因为最近都在忙东西，要不然就是和朋友谈天...

昨天就刚旅行回来，所以电脑不是让给我3个弟弟和小妹妹玩咯...

在一个月前就已经Create了这个blog，也一直没有机会写，亦可能是不想写吧》...

因为我每次打字的时候，弟弟妹妹都会在旁边看，感觉很不自然...

所以每次都是夜深人静的时候才可以打...

可是今天的这段时间没人在家，我不是坐在这边打咯...

今天去找Ms. Froggy, 才发现到还有很多东西还没完成，再加上有两个聪明的朋友不是很合作，真是气死我了...

放学后又赶不上那个笨车，真的很烦人叻！！！

那两个废材的事，就算了吧，可是赶不上那辆大便车，会很麻烦的叻，又要call我grandparents来送我回家...

我已经连续5天没有上她的车了，都不懂她会跟我爸妈讲什么...

现在我真的不懂要做什么，第一次坐在电脑面前，却不知道自己想做什么...

朋友一直约我打机，我都不是很想...

只是一直找几个借口推掉算了...

最近找到了新的“她”，对“她”的感觉就如刚萌芽的种子吧...哈~

虽然现在很想找“她”，可是好像有点不详的预感，不知“她”怎么了...

奇怪的我，最近不知怎么了，会无端端生气...(不是每个月来的那种,ok?!?)

或许是有位知心好友要离开了吧，

也许是因为“她”吧，

因为“她”非要把我的爱好改掉不可，可是又要我自己想新的爱好...

今天我老爸不知是吃错药还是没吃药...

他居然会问我们几兄弟要不要到戏院去看电影，真是把我们几兄弟给吓倒...

我爸妈从来都不带我们去看电影的叻，一直说票很贵，可是为什么....

真是给他们砸到~

写到这里，心情好了很多...

电脑，真谢谢你啊！！

考完试后的这两个礼拜，真的过得好快、好充实...

可是也因为过得充实才导致我喘不过气，突然累了...

真希望时间可以在这一刻开始停留下来，让大家好好相处并把握剩下的这几天...

不能停止的话，也应该slow down吧...

真的不想面对明年的分班叻...

Ray, 咱们有缘再见吧!

B3$t Wish3s

ShinN

11-November-2008

ChaiN of MemorieS

A day fully on E3 - Electronic Entertainment Expo

有一种幸福的滋味叫感念，有一种满足的情愫叫感念，有一种开心的感觉叫感念

閱讀，這份禮物

Boredom

Truant?

When night falls,,,

Talk

Something just so RANDOM

Damn It

[SUPER HQ] Girls' Generation (SNSD) - GEE FULL MV!!!!!!!!!

Thank You So Much~

Ah~ An Idiot's Life

走

Shit

Somethin, I do not know for myself.

Phew... say BYE to exams!!

Ultimate Ninja 4: Naruto Shippuden

Valkyrie Profile 2: Silmeria

Kamen Rider: Climax Heroes

Dynasty Warriors: Gundam 2

WoHOOOO~~~~

ILL

*外婆*

永恒的思念

Father Forgets

A Day Passed, Again

It's you, My Life

Pop star Michael Jackson dies in Los Angeles aged 50

An Apple a Day, Keeps the Doctors Away...Wohoo

Looks Like My Summer Vacation Is, Over.....

Limit

突变之不爽

“我就知道你是酱lin diao的咯，全部都懂了…”

其母之，你现在到底什么意思哦！？！？

我全程在jusco都在为了你而担心，担心你回到学校后，剩你一个人，怎样过哦？？

一直在想办法让你在他们回到学校，即10-11点之前，不用这么孤独一个人在学校过,

连吃KFC都还在帮你想…

你爸找上门来，我就全程都在为你焦虑，担心你会被你爸”铲“得很惨，帮你想要如何要让你爸信任你…

妈的，你最后，杀出一句-“就知道你是酱lin diao 的啦，全部人都懂了…”

有没有想过我的感受的哦？？

我跟老师回家时，都一直觉得你很无辜，到头来，你真的很无辜咯，我有罪啦！！！！

屌！！！肏！！！

回到食堂，第一件事想到要做的就是帮你收拾行李，好让你明日来拿行李时，会比较方便…

我竟然还蠢到要酱贴心，再三叮咛他们三个：俊宏、德耀和祖庆明天帮你去林泉光礼堂拿水壶…

从来没想过我会为了一个朋友，酱焦虑不安咯。

从来没想过我对一个人的真诚，会换来的是那句话咯。

如果你只是泛泛之交，你觉得我会酱好吗？？

为你欢喜，为你愁？？

为了你的事，搞到好像自己的事酱，非解决不可？？

跟他们讲，是为了什么？？

原因何在？？？

简单， 最单纯的为朋友的担心与焦虑,

我几怕你回家后必须面对你酱凶的老爸,你懂的没有？？？？？

而你却把我当作”傻海“，因为我一直跟人讲你被爸爸拉回家的事，令你很难堪、很没脸。

难到我不是吗？？

一回到来就跟那三个在会所讲”大件事“，讲了酱多，明知自己解说能力超弱，还拼命挣扎，希望他们明白你的

处境…

过后到学校门口时，又跟另一帮讲…

是啦是啦，我是很傻海啦，看到这个又讲，看到那个又讲，怕死全世界不懂酱…

但是，你有想过吗？？

我跟他们讲了过后，他们全部还是自己讲自己的，脸上露出的，竟还有笑容…

然后看着他们微笑着，挥挥手跟我说”掰掰“…

好像不当一回事酱…

我真的不想为酱小的事，来比较自己咯，但是，在这四四方方的电脑面前，我觉得自己无需对它有所保留咯…

我哦，去到jusco，一直到这一刻，

回到家写这blog post的这一刻，都没有笑过，跟不用说微笑了…

你觉得是因为谁？？？？？

到底是谁酱傻海噢？？

我啦，谁？？

上几次的的科学学会大型活动，你以为我真的很想打机啊？？

义卖会、test game那天，说要打机的绝对不会是我…

现在真的不想尊重任何人了，所以我要说：”多谢你，我现在在其他高委前的‘傻海打机仔‘形象，都是拜你说赐

的。“你妈的！！！！！

你以为我真的很喜欢打机咩？？

只是我觉得，既然是朋友要求，而且久久一次，将就下咯…

很多次了咯，给其他人觉得我只不过是个很不负责任的打机仔，好像吸了白粉酱，非打不可…

可以不要白痴吗？？如果人人认为我爱打机的话，我没其他话讲，但只能说我可以为了一些朋友的”爱打机“而

打机，亦可以为了他们的”想打机“而打机…

强调：现在的我，并非当年初一、初二的我了，当年的颜郢兵，的确是典型的”逃学型打机仔“…

外婆

简单，最单纯的为朋友的担心与焦虑,