Some of you might have noticed, my blogs are often or always full of sadness...Well, to be honest, i rarely talk about things which made me happy, cause i don't really know how to write about happiness...I know happiness is a wonderful thing to be written, but i just don't know how, to express...
And some of you might ask why don't i update my blog often...Well, i guess i don't feel like it right now, to do all these stuff, like my friends did...You see, I am not that kind of guy who concentrates on appearance or covers, although i would really much like myself to look good, to look nice...
However, as i grow, i slowly realise that that would only be a dream, a fantasy...I've benn hurt for so many many times, i'll be sad, but thrust me, i'll get over it soon enough...
So, if you've met me in person, you'll know i ain't that kind of nice looking guy at all, cuz i don't do all those hair-styling and stuffs...As a result, the same goes to my blog...I am not like other bloggers, who spend time decorating their blogs, looking for some dazzling wallpapers, some other nice sentences to attract the readers...
Thanks for my teammates/friends who have been playing computer games with me since last year, i enjoyed and appreciate that, thank you...But, not this time, nor yesterday's game, nor the day before yesterday's game...I don't know what the heck is happening to me, but, i don't feel like playing with you guys anymore...I may look like i don't seem to care about winning or losing, but, in reality, i care...
It seems like, every time i play with you guys, we'll lose...Perhaps it's my fault, i guess...So that's why i prefer to play alone right now, only those Somebody-I-Don't-Know are gonna blame me, i won't have to blame myself again, for doing noob acts in those games...Sorry to let you all down, 3Zs' , really sorry...I shall withdraw myself from the team, i suppose, although we won today...I would like to praise myself for today's peformance, perhaps it's the best cuz i somehow enjoyed the process of gaming today...
I had a misunderstanding with her today, which made me furious and sad as well...But, i got over it quickly, and apologized for misunderstanding her...I'm glad she understands...
Ray, i'm glad you called on 22th of November, which was the night before yesterday...Seems like you really treat my as one of your friends, i feel fortunate...Those days when you stepped into my house, i would never forget, cuz i consider you as one of my best and true friends...I can tell that you miss us and you'll promise not to forget us...If you really wanna go to Singapore, work hard for it, i know you'll get there someday, i'll be cheering for you...
A Friend will always be supporting you, no matter what you're doing...
A Friend won't be forgetting your name, no matter where you are...
A Friend will always be right there cheering for you, no matter what happens...
I wish i were these kind of FRIEND, do you?
ShinN
2:39am
24~November~2008
(Sorry if there are any subjects or materials which made you uncomfortable or uneasy, my deepest apologies for that...N' sorry if there are any grammar mistakes or spellings, if it is something that matters)