Friday, September 25, 2009

Thank You So Much~

One of my mom's maids is gonna leave tomorrow.
Back home.
Back to Indonesia.

2 years of working.
From ba-ka to pro-ka.
I do respect them, to be honest.
Not to mention the age gap,
and to their jobs.

Without them,
my house wouldn't have been this clean and tidy.
Sometimes, the place gets really dirty and messy.

If there weren't them, it would have been an eyesore.
Thanks to you two...Kakak Aminah and Kakak Yati

I overheard my mom saying that she couldn't get a child after a few years of marriage.
Here's my sincere "THANKS FOR EVERYTHING",
and wish her all the best when she gets back.
=]

Terima-Kasih banyak banyak~


10.47pm
25 September 2009

Ah~ An Idiot's Life

I've been knowing this kid for quite some time.

This kid i know, he doesn't talk much.
He's not really tall compared to kids of his age.

Okay, so there's something i know about this kid's life yesterday.
Ever since his grandpa's sudden death, his grandma's been acting strangely,
She dare not live in her house.
She says she's afraid.

Initially, she slept with the kid.
Next, the boy's grandma moved.
Moved to her daughter's place.

And now,
she's currently staying with her sister.

So, the thing the boy's confused is,
What's she so afraid of?
Is she being afraid of her own husband?
What the....

Yesterday, the grandma claimed that she had totally forgotten to bring lunch for the child's younger siblings - a 10-year-old boy and a 7-year-old girl who were at school waiting for her.
She had also forgotten to pick the twins up at the bus stop, and hence both of them walked back.
Furthermore, she had forgotten what time she should pick the kid up...

The kid was thus worried about his grandma,
afraid that she'll have as she can't accept her husband's death...
And so,
When she asked the boy what time to pick the boy up,
The boy answered "No Need"
"Nevermind, i can fetch you before 5pm~"
"I think it'll be later than 5pm...So it doesn't matter, i'll come back myself tomorrow"
"Emm... I think i can make it, so you'll call me when you're ready, right?"
"Errrr... There isn't such need, my friend will send me home..=]"
"Oo... Your friend'll send you home, then ok la~"

In his heart, he's apologizing silently to his grandma for lying.
As he knows there isn't any friend who's gonna send him back.
And so,
The boy walked home today.

What a tiring journey.
He started by looking at his black, 5-year-old Casio watch.
It took the boy some time to read the time, and finally, he saw it.
4.48pm
Mentally, he was already tired.
Without further delay, he took off.

Around 5pm, he reached O.K. Tuck restaurant.
The boy was already perspiring under the blazing hot cruel Sun.
At a 5meters-wide road, he was at.
Yet, all of a sudden, a familiarly girlish, yet aged voice was heard from the opposite road side.
The boy turned up his head and looked towards the direction the voice was made.

"O.M.G. What the hell is grandma doing here????"
Analysed the surroundings,
determined that his grandma was picking some vegetables and was asking the price.

Without a word,
he turned his head back straight and fast-walk, LIGHT SPEED!
He quickly made a left turn, into an alley,
just in case if his grandma took that way back.
He then walked the quiet alley which cars rarely use.
Passed by the old kindergarten/children's daycare center he used to go till primary 5. Nostalgically, he looked at it.
And walked past it, made a right turn, back into the main road.

Fast-walking was quite impossible anymore,
as he was struggling up a long-long slope.
His bag on his back, was a real burden now,
even though it wasn't heavy at first,
now he felt it.
His legs ached, calling for a Time-Out.

Ignorant as he always was, he ignored them all,
he was really afraid that his grandma would be behind him any time.
And he'll be flooded with questions if she saw him.
And she'll be sad and angry of her grandson,
to be a liar,
to bluff his grandma.

Phew, the uphill journey ended,
and now,
it's downhill...
Wohoooo~~~~
Energy level - normal,
Systems all green.
START UP.

He sprinted down the slope,
and rang the bell.

The black watch clocked at 5.06pm.
Gasping for air,
Still carrying out anaerobic respiration.
Time needed to remove total lactic acid:
20 minutes.

Blog.
Chat.
Blog.
Chat.
Blog.
Chat.
Blog.
Chat.
Blog.
Chat.
Blog.
Chat.
Blog.
Chat.
Blog.

What a cycle~



Blog Session Ended:
8.57pm
25 September 2009







Wednesday, September 16, 2009

一个人走,和两个人一起走有什么差别?

一个人走,
有孤单的感觉。

两个人走,
有分享的感觉。

一个人走,
有伤心落寞的感觉。

两个人走,
有开心愉快的感觉。

一个人走,
可以走出悲伤。

两个人走,
可以走出快乐。


你,
喜欢走怎样的路呢?

9.23pm
16.9.09

Monday, September 7, 2009

Shit

The early morning greeted me with such a tension that i couldn't bear.

I heard a girlish voice calling my name,
My eyes were then opened.
Little did i know it was already 6.50am.

The engine roared to life a few seconds later.
I once realised it was already late,
but it was already too late.

Preparations to go to school were soon done and finished,
I was ready after having my mug of MILO drunk and washed.

I was then hopin my mom could send me to school,
so i ran up and knocked her door.

The conversation ended in a few seconds,
and what i learnt was,
she wouldn't bother to send me to school.
As she told me to ask for help,
from my grandparents.

I called immediately, as it's already around 7.15am that time.
No time to loose.

Once the line got through,
i paused and thought,
"Wait, even if they picked up the phone,
I would have to explain everything,
it takes time. Hell lots of time.
Even if i did explain,
It'll again take some time for them to prepare to come and pick me up.
Furthermore, my grandpa's having heart disease,
and i don't think i should wake them up just because of me.

Thus,
grabbed my keys,
hopped right into my shoes,
opened, closed the small door from the auto-gate.

Started fast-walking.
I've already started having muscle cramps by the time i reached OK-Tuck Restaurant.
Perhaps i was pushing myself too hard,
trying not to be late,
in spite of knowing the fact that i'm already late.

Such short distance and having muscle cramps?
Yea, i'm not an athlete, i know that.
Fanks for reminding, appreciate that.

Upon arrival at class after the 18minutes "walk",
everyone was busy.
I cannot say that i'm glad,
for i desired someone, ANYONE to show a little concern, some sympathy.

There i was,
still carrying out anaerobic respiration,
gasping for air,
Soaked wet on the back,
as if i just took my shower.

It was so damn obvious,
No one asked nor cared.

Couldn't blame people though,
why the hell would people care?
I ain't any Jay Chou or David Beckham.
WHY?
Ask yourself, poor boy ShinN.

And the rest of the day was also ruined,
cuz of that bad start.

And now i just heard something which i really hate.
"Don't play too late arh ei, later tomorrow cannot wake up again..."
D*** you, DAD!!!!
D*** you, MOM!!!
D*** all of you!!!!!!!!!

12.19am
8/9/09




Thursday, September 3, 2009

Somethin, I do not know for myself.

Today wasn't a great day, to be honest.
I wasn't happy.

Something is bothering me.
I couldn't do anything about it.
Or should i say,
I didn't?

Thanks for your concern,
I'm glad you were there.

I've always hoped someone or somebody,
anyone, anybody,
would be there for me.

I was desperately intend to speak my heart out.
No one was there.

I tried to control it.
Never let it control you, i spoke to myself.

I failed though.
It ran down,
What a drizzle.

Finally, i was asleep.
Glad.
Yes, I am.

------------------------------------Divider, I'm----------------------------------------------



The Dale Carnegie Training ended a little while ago.
23rd of August.
It was such a nice day.

My mom and sister attended the convocation as well.
It was that day that i hoped that it would last longer.
The whole training.

To be honest,
I learnt a lot.
Fundamental Techniques in Handling People and Socialising.
How to Win Friends and Influence People.
How to Stop Worrying and Start Living.
and so much more.

-What exactly is The Dale Carnegie Training?
-Who is Dale Carnegie anyways?

There's always the same question which people ask.
"Why can't you come on this Sunday?"
I'm attending a course.
"What course are you attending?"
Dale Carnegie Training.
"What exactly is that?"

I've tried answering that question before,
It's really tough.

Despite all my efforts explaining,
People wouldn't understand.
Some could,
Some could hardly.

Some people were flabbergasted upon hearing the fee.
I'm not surprised to see people surprised.
I know it ain't cheap,
Yet, it's totally worth it.

I'm always anxious about something.
I've told some of my friends about this training.
So i believe they would hardly not take me as an example or this training.
So how i behave and how i communicate,
what i do,
how i rectify a problem.

I believe they would just think,
"Cheh, after paying so much money for the cost,
you're still the same,
no changes at all"

I do know that people won't say this kind of things in front of me.
That's why i'm afraid and worried.

To be honest, i'm trying really hard to change my life.
Just give me some time, kay?
I really want a better life.
I'm trying really hard to apply those principles into my life,
especially school life.

If only some of my friends had also attended the training.
Then they would know the importance of those principles.
And therefore lead a better life like never before.

Recently,
I'm having a grudge for those who talk bad about people,
not to even mention criticism.
I'm already trying to hold back whenever i feel like criticising,
as the 1st principle's always on my mind.

But the stop worrying and start living thingy,
i'm still on it.
Give me some time, i'll work it out.


Principle No. 5
[Keep on SMILING] ShinN~
It does make a difference.