Boredom

That little boi boi is bored.
On some level, he suppose that boredom is a good thing. Considering his present environment, the opposite of boredom could well be life threatening. Perhaps he should be grateful. Perhaps...
Nope. Nope, still bored. Impossible to be grateful for being bored. There are simply too many interesting things going on in the world to tolerate boredom for even a moment.
It's probably his mind that is to blame. His mind is always racing, always thinking, always conceiving new ideas, new concepts. His mind chafes against boredom, rages against the very notion of tedium. He thinks about a friend of his who was a coffee addict, claiming that the reason he regularly put junk up his mouth was that he was bored, and having a sip of coffee helped to counteract the threat of impending tedium.

***Some really random things a klutz wrote, just to rectify boredom.=]

2.56am

22 November 2009

Truant?

I know i am not supposed to be here right now,

I was supposed to be there.

I know i am not supposed to blog here right now,

I was supposed to be there.

It all started since that fateful tuesday,

the very 1st time in my life,

I didn't go schooling,

for no reasons.

I played truant.

And now,

I regret it.

I'm puzzled.

I don't know what to do.

***Flashback***

[D Tuesday]

It was already 6am, or more than that, actually.

He felt someone shaking him, calling his name, trying to wake him up.

Yet, he didn't.

All he did was just ignoring them.

Around half past twelve in the afternoon,

He was awaken from his deep slumber.

'Another 1 hour and 15 minutes, my bros are gonna come back home.'

He thought to himself.

[D Wednesday]

A Miserable day, indeed.

He again, woke up at 6.45am, which was the time he and his family usually depart from home.

Quickly, he ran towards the bathroom.(Although it's just beside his bedroom)

All he knew was, he wanted to keep his promise.(Don't ask me what promise, kay? I'm not that good at secret-telling)

He did what needed to be done, ASAP.

However, by the time he got out of the bathroom,

they were already gone.

Left with no other choice,

he changed to his schooling attire,

drank a mug of MILO,

and out he went.

Walking was fun, but DIRTY.

He was soaked wet when he reached his class,

it wasn't the first time already, so it didn't really matter.

[D Thursday]

He woke up pretty damn early, 10am.

He tried texting and calling, for guidance, for help,

as he was left alone at home.

No one replied, nor did they answer.

Frustrated, he sat on his bed,

didn't know what to do.

'They must have thought I didn't want to go to school.'

He thought to himself.

After brushing his teeth, he sat there, right on that spot on his bed which he was sitting a while ago.

He waited, for their reply.

He hoped the telephone would just beep, ringing would be need too much hope.

Finally, he rung.

He already knew it wasn't her though.

But, it was fine, and great.

Cuz someone called, at least.

Hern Yi was the one who called.

H.Y. told him about where he should be going later.

He reassured him that he will go, and he wanted to go to school.

Yes, He will indeed.

He swear, he isn't gonna make the same mistake ever again.

12.04pm

19.November.2009

The Day Which Wasn't Supposed To Be

When night falls,,,

2009's gonna end,

Cuz 2012's comin lol...

12/11/09

"We were warned"

The year everyone's been waiting for,

The end of the world,

is near.

Gonna catch this movie for sure,

but the initial plan has been changed,

so 'll probably go on friday.

2009 is really coming to an end,

i don't know why, but i just get the feeling that this year just flew

Everything just happened so fast.

It's as if i have just had my PMR yesterday.

And i already have to face SPM now.

HECK...

I don't know how am I gonna do that...

Today's a good day,

with us singing and winning and stuffs...

These moments, perhaps they're the last, so i'll cherish 'em...

Well, singing together on stage is not something students of 10+ could do all the time,

that's why i thought at least this could be part of my ever-lasting memory when i leave school, leave home, leave friends...

Dunno, it's just...

Look, there's only around 1 year left for all of us to be together,

going to the same school, the same class, the same laboratory, the same canteen, the same toilet, everything...

and after that, it's gonna be GOODBYE,

perhaps it would be the last one you can ever say to a person,

or it might not be,

cuz we might meet each other some other day, right?

Who knows?

But, to be honest,

i just get the feeling that,

even if we did meet one another when we start college-ing/uni-ing,

we wouldn't be able to talk and chat and do stuffs we did back here at school back then...

I don't know all about these, it's all so random, again...

All i know is that,

there's not much time left for us to be together,

and that's what really matters to me, right now.

Cuz it seems like i'll lose lots of hard-earned trust and friendship once i leave school,

as i won't be studying Form 6 or whatever it is, probably...

Holy crap, i really can't believe i'm gonna be in Form 5 next year,

all the while i always thought i till have a long time and long way to go before i will study Form 5...

And now,

'Poof'', here i am, ending Form 4 in 2 weeks,

and a new school life at a different class will start, soon...

And so it's time for me to think about my career, my future,

as i haven't really thought deeply about it.

Cuz there's just so damn many jobs in the world,

and i would like to do all of 'em...

Zzz, i'm so greedy,

despite knowing that's obviously impossible...

The results for this final exams aren't that amusing,

i'm totally unsatisfied...

Well, the last time i was satisfied with my results was,

indeed, during the UPSR paper, and the years before that...

All i can say is that 'Gone were the days when he was still a hardworking boy, he's changed,

not in a positive and encouraging manner, he's become a lazy bum who' s only interested in computers and gaming consoles...'

That's why his results deteriorated, crappy results.

Damn it!

Results, they always meant somethin to him...

12.08am

11 November 09

Talk

He needs someone to talk to.

'So much to talk about, yet don't know how to start with, eh?'

Wish i could lend him a hand.

Something just so RANDOM

Dear Blog,

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to abandon you and leave you here alone for months...

I don't think i have someone to talk to, that's why i'll just utter some nonsense on a new page of you, you won't mind, would you?

Yesterday was the beginning of HAPPY DAY, (not very HAPPY, actually)

and today is the beginning of DOOMSDAY.

I thought it would be a good day today at school, although i knew it would be quite lame and boring with the award giving ceremony going on in the morning.

Yea yea~Applause, Applause and Applause...

Things then turned real bad after the ceremony and all ended, i peered at the teacher's desk with the exam score sheet on it.

Message on my head -"Oh No...."

It was Physics period soon after the long long recess, which i used the time to just stare at the same page of the Twilight novel i purchased months ago. Yes, i was looking at it, but not reading though...Physics, yea Physics...lame grades either...

But it sucks the most when the both neighbours sitting beside me got excited and made such fuss about their god damn full-marks, 40 over 40. (Yea, yea, great, cool, congrats, but just turn down your volume when you're try to celebrate)

I would have preferred if you guys who scored better grades than the others, would just shut your god-damn-mouth and stop boasting about yourself by asking how much the others got.

It's pretty irritating when i "OVERHEARD" you criticizing that girl who sits in front, it's not that i admire, adore or like her or whatsoever...

Just be humble, wouldn't you?

Besides, you were only sitting next to me and you wouldn't even bother how i felt when you were teasing the others, especially when that person was just right in front of me? Curse you!

And you wouldn't have believed this, someone proposed to come over my house and have a steamboat party. Yea, yea, BRILLIANT idea...

Who slept the earliest, remember?

Who did the cleaning then, remember?

Who played my computers when most of them were busy preparing for that steamboat, remember?

(At this point, this post sure IS a mess, so unorganized, but it can't be helped, for my feelings and thoughts are currently like that too)

I could remember myself doing the dishes that night, with some of them already asleep, some too absorbed to the movie to such extent that they didn't even notice my disappearance...

It's been so nice of you all back then, leaving the master of the house cleaning the whole mess while you were all sleeping and watching TVs...Such nice friends you all were...

I decided to get over it, but this memory of that day keeps on reappearing on my head.

Why?

Well, i don't have to answer this, do i?

Lately, someone's been a real ass.

Y. H. Y.

Yea, i know everyone knows you, so i don't have to type your full name out, right?

Such an asshole you were back then, not to mention yesterday...

You've been trying on my patience, someday, i'm gonna lose my wits and you'll regret.

I admit you do have your good qualities of being a friend,

but sometimes you are so damn annoying...

By the way, is it some random acts of kindness to lend someone your phone?

I don't think so...By that time when i was willing to 'lend' you my phone, i thought you'd return it, not OWN it.

Some of you really pisses me off, but i think it's best if no one knows about this...

I don't even know what i wrote here, as i don't even look back and check for errors in posts...

Damn It

I'm being underestimated,

and I don't like it.